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Hello everyone, lately I have grown accustomed to this forum because at the beginning go July my groin lymph nodes swell up because of a skin infection and while I feel like one went down a little bit I am still incredibly scared about why they have not gone down completely. I went to my GP 4 times already, he prescribed blood tests and an ultrasound (just to calm me, he said he did not feel like it was anything worrisome) and both came back perfectly fine, highlighting the biggest lymph node in my groin which was 12 millimeters in diameter (I guess that is normal but maybe some of you have more experience on the subject and can tell me If that is ok) but still was nothing to worry about according to my doctors; in September I decided to go see a dermatologist because I could not calm myself down and even she told me that I had nothing to worry about, that my infection was basically all gone and that my lymph nodes were too little to be a cause for concern. It is now almost the middle of October and I cannot stop worrying about these things, I spend my days searching the internet and prodding around my body looking for some sort of peace of mind but I just find more things to be anxious about. I even started seeing a therapist because of this but I cannot shake this never-ending fear of some sort of illness, I just want to feel happy and relieved again without having to worry about me possibly being terribly ill, I cannot sleep right, I cannot eat right, I cannot live my everyday life in a safe way because this worry is always present. Please anybody I really need help but I have no idea what to do anymore
 

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It does mean you have a severe illness because of the lymph, there could be many reasons why you have this issue. The GP will comfort you, and tell you what the issue really is. Speak to your GP about it.
 

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It does mean you have a severe illness because of the lymph, there could be many reasons why you have this issue. The GP will comfort you, and tell you what the issue really is. Speak to your GP about it.
i honestly do not understand your point, I did go to my gp multiple times and to many other doctors. I have no idea what to do anymore
 

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I have had swollen groin lymph nodes many times. Mostly in the summer time from heat or after a shave. They are normal.
 

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I have had swollen groin lymph nodes many times. Mostly in the summer time from heat or after a shave. They are normal.
You did? Mine went up after an infection and never went down, but the thing is my doctors said they are not worried but still I’m incredibly worried and anxious
 

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I was really worried as well. I seen 2 different doctors. One told me if it was anything to be concerned with my white blood count would be high. Mine was fine. She gave me antibiotics and two weeks my lymph nodes went back to normal.
 

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I was really worried as well. I seen 2 different doctors. One told me if it was anything to be concerned with my white blood count would be high. Mine was fine. She gave me antibiotics and two weeks my lymph nodes went back to normal.
Oh ok i got it, mine did not go down completely tho and are still there, that is what worries me
 

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Oh ok i got it, mine did not go down completely tho and are still there, that is what worries me
You're doctor said they're fine, no need to worry (but that's easier said than done when you have anxiety). It's not abnormal at all for some lymph nodes to take a long while to return to normal. It's also not unusual for lymph nodes to sometimes become permanently enlarged, often because we poke and prod which causes shoddy nodes. No biggie.
 

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You're doctor said they're fine, no need to worry (but that's easier said than done when you have anxiety). It's not abnormal at all for some lymph nodes to take a long while to return to normal. It's also not unusual for lymph nodes to sometimes become permanently enlarged, often because we poke and prod which causes shoddy nodes. No biggie.
Yeah they did and I should really stop worrying about it and just go live my everyday life like I used to but this situation really turned my whole world upside down, im starting to find it hard to understand what is real and what it is not and it's honestly extremely draining. What hurts me the most is that I feel like I would be fine if they went down completely but apparently it is possible for them to just stay there
 

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Yes, it's absolutely possible for them to remain enlarged. Those lymph nodes are always "there", they just usually aren't noticeable. Leave them be, and go enjoy life. That's all you need to do.
 

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Yes, it's absolutely possible for them to remain enlarged. Those lymph nodes are always "there", they just usually aren't noticeable. Leave them be, and go enjoy life. That's all you need to do.
thank you, you're absolutely right, I will try my best to keep this anxiety under control I have some bad days and these past few have been awful
 

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thank you, you're absolutely right, I will try my best to keep this anxiety under control I have some bad days and these past few have been awful
I understand; we all do. That's why we're here! Feel free to reach out any time, we'll help you through it.
 

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I understand; we all do. That's why we're here! Feel free to reach out any time, we'll help you through it.
I appreciate this so much, I always experienced health anxiety but it never got this bad and while I feel like looking for reassurance is not always the best of decisions lately I felt extremely lost and I feel like I needed to speak to people who feel the same way as I do
 

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I appreciate this so much, I always experienced health anxiety but it never got this bad and while I feel like looking for reassurance is not always the best of decisions lately I felt extremely lost and I feel like I needed to speak to people who feel the same way as I do
Seeking reassurance is indeed not a great idea, but it happens. Don't be afraid to ask us for help, we won't push you away just for seeking reassurance. We will, however, encourage healthier behaviors to combat the anxiety, so you hopefully won't have to seek reassurance anymore. :D
 

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Seeking reassurance is indeed not a great idea, but it happens. Don't be afraid to ask us for help, we won't push you away just for seeking reassurance. We will, however, encourage healthier behaviors to combat the anxiety, so you hopefully won't have to seek reassurance anymore. :D
You are so right, sometimes I try to stay away from social media and forums but at times I feel like I really need support, thanks for helping me calm down
 
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