Hey guys, I wanna try to keep this short but it’s a lot.
I’m 21, was diagnosed with GAD and then panic disorder and depression at 13. I spent a year or so in my house when I was 15 because I had severe agoraphobia. Last few years I have been able to leave the house and work and live a relatively normal life. The past month I’ve been feeling really “off”. I’m getting physical symptoms out of nowhere when I’m not anxious at all. I start to sweat soooo much and I feel lightheaded and tired and I can’t focus at all! Memory hasn’t been right also. I just never feel like I’m “here”. I recently spent 5 days with extreme tremors from anxiety. It wasn’t just normal anxiety, it was something I had never ever felt. Nothing felt real, I felt like I was on a hallucinogenic, my heart was racing and I was sweating for an entire day. I really did feel like I would die. I couldn’t see and I really felt like I was floating. There is nothing physically wrong with me that the doctors tested for. I haven’t left the house for about a week now. Too afraid that intense anxiety will happen again.. I’m honestly phobic of feeling that way again. It was so scary, I couldn’t deal with it. I felt like I would end everything if it didn’t stop. What is happening to me? I am going crazy? I’m afraid I’m crazy.
(I can’t get mental health help where I’m living right now and I can’t move back to my home because I’m too anxious to fly right now)
I’m 21, was diagnosed with GAD and then panic disorder and depression at 13. I spent a year or so in my house when I was 15 because I had severe agoraphobia. Last few years I have been able to leave the house and work and live a relatively normal life. The past month I’ve been feeling really “off”. I’m getting physical symptoms out of nowhere when I’m not anxious at all. I start to sweat soooo much and I feel lightheaded and tired and I can’t focus at all! Memory hasn’t been right also. I just never feel like I’m “here”. I recently spent 5 days with extreme tremors from anxiety. It wasn’t just normal anxiety, it was something I had never ever felt. Nothing felt real, I felt like I was on a hallucinogenic, my heart was racing and I was sweating for an entire day. I really did feel like I would die. I couldn’t see and I really felt like I was floating. There is nothing physically wrong with me that the doctors tested for. I haven’t left the house for about a week now. Too afraid that intense anxiety will happen again.. I’m honestly phobic of feeling that way again. It was so scary, I couldn’t deal with it. I felt like I would end everything if it didn’t stop. What is happening to me? I am going crazy? I’m afraid I’m crazy.
(I can’t get mental health help where I’m living right now and I can’t move back to my home because I’m too anxious to fly right now)
