Introduction and a fear of mine.

[KimStarrySky]

Hi,

My name is Kim. I came here to discuss a fear of mine that I am attempting to gain a grasp on. I just tonight learned that this fear has a word, thanatophobia. I am consistently worrying about losing the ones I love, I fear them dying almost daily. Does anyone have advice? It causes me to keep others at a distance because I'm afraid, very afraid, of when I lose them. I fear coping or not being able to cope.

Glad to be here, thank you!

More about myself - I am a hiker, I used to paint but have taken a break due to depression, I love animals and the earth.

 

[EMJ]

I think it is a common fear that you will lose what you love most....when I am going through my most anxious times I really struggle with this....I tell my kids to bear with me if I text them too often to check on them or seem overly anxious about their well being. I lost a son 28 years ago and it has caused me to fear this overwhelming sense of loss often.....dealing with an anxiety disorder amplifies EVERYTHING.

 

[KimStarrySky]

I'm not sure what caused this fear to begin, for me. I think it's because I don't feel stable, usually, and really rely on people like my mom and boyfriend to help me stay grounded. I also love them so much, and can't imagine being here without them. My boyfriend, early in our relationship, got into a car accident on the highway and his car rolled. He's gotten in more accidents and has had close calls. My mom seems strong, but I still worry. I'm afraid of being completely alone. I have a difficult time with trust, but I can kind of trust these two people. But I do keep them at a distance, out of fear of losing them. It doesn't seem fair of me.