I can’t stop thinking about the meaning of everything.. help

[Saoirse]

Hi there, introduction to me; I’m a 21 year old girl and my diagnoses are GAD, panic disorder, and bpd.
Lately I can’t stop thinking about/questioning what everything means and why things are the way they are and it’s really freaking me out. It’s not just about the meaning of life, but everything! I was looking at an egg today and I couldn’t stop thinking about how strange it was that eggs exist and i couldn’t stop those thoughts and it started freaking me out. It’s hard to explain but I just get these thought like “why are people here?” “What exactly is reality?” I question reality a lot. I mean, I know what’s real, but I’ll be in the middle of a conversation and unable to focus because I’m thinking about how strange it is that other people exist and stuff.. idk it’s really freaking me out. I can’t control it. I really think I’m losing my mind

 

[doubleanx]

Welcome! I wish I could offer you an answer to these questions but I'm in the same place myself. From experience, I don't think there is an answer that can stop you questioning reality because we will never really know. I'm not personally very spiritual but I find that learning about religion and philosophy helps get me out of my head when I feel like this. I think religion is how most people answer those questions. If nothing else I hope it helps to know you're not alone in searching for meaning.

 

[MainerMikeBrown]

I've questioned the meaning of life and the world before. I've questioned what reality is.

Since I'll never know during my lifetime, I just try the best I can to make my life and my reality as happy and productive as possible.

 

[Trying123]

Hi Saoirse,
I think this way sometimes, but it does not make me anxious. I have been reading the Bible and Christian literature since my anxiety became out of control. I don't have answers for you but believe we have a purpose here.

 

[Worryworm]

This is me a LOT! I think: I'll look around and obsess about everything: like how the roads were created, for example...or dogs...IDK I sound soo weird, but I get caught up in thinking about the meaning of life a lot, not in a depressed way but a curious way and then I start obsessing about it and think I'm the only one who does that and then I go down the rabbit hole...

 

[bin_tenn]

IMO, this is the OCD aspect of anxiety. Yes, I've experienced this many times, and I still do often. Sometimes it's harmless, but other times it can induce anxiety. Acceptance is a huge help in overcoming the anxiety caused by such thoughts, especially what's called "radical acceptance."

Radical acceptance is accepting that something "is" for no practically reason. It simply "is", and that's okay. You don't "need" to know why (there is no "why") but anxiety, I know, often makes you feel like there is.

I highly recommend researching and practicing (radical) acceptance.