I can’t stop thinking about the meaning of everything.. help

[Saoirse]

Hi there, introduction to me; I’m a 21 year old girl and my diagnoses are GAD, panic disorder, and bpd.
Lately I can’t stop thinking about/questioning what everything means and why things are the way they are and it’s really freaking me out. It’s not just about the meaning of life, but everything! I was looking at an egg today and I couldn’t stop thinking about how strange it was that eggs exist and i couldn’t stop those thoughts and it started freaking me out. It’s hard to explain but I just get these thought like “why are people here?” “What exactly is reality?” I question reality a lot. I mean, I know what’s real, but I’ll be in the middle of a conversation and unable to focus because I’m thinking about how strange it is that other people exist and stuff.. idk it’s really freaking me out. I can’t control it. I really think I’m losing my mind

 

[doubleanx]

Welcome! I wish I could offer you an answer to these questions but I'm in the same place myself. From experience, I don't think there is an answer that can stop you questioning reality because we will never really know. I'm not personally very spiritual but I find that learning about religion and philosophy helps get me out of my head when I feel like this. I think religion is how most people answer those questions. If nothing else I hope it helps to know you're not alone in searching for meaning.

 

[MainerMikeBrown]

I've questioned the meaning of life and the world before. I've questioned what reality is.

Since I'll never know during my lifetime, I just try the best I can to make my life and my reality as happy and productive as possible.

 

[Trying123]

Hi Saoirse,
I think this way sometimes, but it does not make me anxious. I have been reading the Bible and Christian literature since my anxiety became out of control. I don't have answers for you but believe we have a purpose here.