- Mar 11, 2018
Hello, I am a 16 year old male. This article is about some thoughts i had in my head that won’t stop happening. I am seeking any help what so ever. Let’s start two years ago. Around my 14th birthday I started to get extremely depressed. I would have thoughts about killing someone I knew or hurting people, and other things that I don’t want to speak on. I do not know where these are coming from. When I was 15 it started to get worse. They were not coming from anywhere else but my mind. Recently I haven’t been getting them but I genuinely fear that they will get even worse. One time I had an image in my head so horrible that I couldn’t help but break into tears. Whenever I have these thoughts I feel extremely bad as if I actually did them. The thing is, I have never acted on these thoughts nor have I had any behavior in the past or recently that could make me have thoughts like this. I currently have a girlfriend and seemingly live a normal life. Overtime, these ideas in my head have made me build a guilt up inside that I think will never go away. If anyone could offer any help I would like to hear I am in no way shape or form a violent person.