I seem to be stuck in the past and it's horrible...I feel like my best days are behind me even though I'm only 23 years old. I spend more time reminiscing on the past than living in the now. The more years that pass by the more sad I feel. I would say 2015 was the last year I could without a doubt say I was genuinely happy. It was the last year I had my grandfather in my life. It's almost like he was the glue that held everything together, and after he passed everything just seemed to fall apart... Everything seemed so normal with him around and now it's not like how it used to be. I don't know what to do to get out of this slump I'm in. I'm alive, but I don't feel like I'm living.