Someone please help...

[Ballofanxiety]

Somebody please help me. In the end of April this started. I’ve always had social anxiety and I’ve always got anxious before going somewhere and I always thought it was normal. It was my normal. Well one day I just woke up with a racing heart and I couldn’t help but cry. Sometimes I felt like bawling and I tired but tears wouldn’t come out. It was prom night so I assumed it was because of that. I went to prom and had an amazing time. The next day same thing happened and I didn’t know what was going on so I went to the ER because I was scared that something was really wrong with me. Everything medically looked fine and they said I’m having a panic attack and offered prescriptions. I told them I didn’t wanna feel more out of it then I already did. It was the weirdest feeling. I can only really describe it as feeling out of it and out of touch and genuinely scared about nothing. I started getting better as the days went by. I distracted myself with tv or my phone. Since the day it started it’s been a daily struggle. I can’t call to renew my food stamps, I can’t leave my house. I can’t think about leaving without having a small panic attack. I don’t have a doctor or a therapist or any money for either of those things and I’m only 18. I’ve contemplated suicide so I can stop feeling like this. I’m way too scared to do it and I couldn’t do that to my family but I can’t live like this. I’m just sitting down watching a show right now and I feel so horrible. I get stomach aches every morning (Not pregnant). I can’t leave my house. I can’t even think about leaving. Even staying here I freak out. I’d rather have anxiety in the comfort of my own home. Sorry if this is hard to understand. It’s hard to understand myself. I’m scared. I’m scared I’ll never be okay. Sometime I have anxiety about anxiety in general or the world and I deep think about existence and meaning. I’m so so scared of my thoughts and feelings. What should I do? I know it’s all in my head so I don’t even know why I’m posting this. I feel like I know everything and nothing at the same time....god I’m so scared. And I’m sorry if I spelled anything wrong I’m not too worried about checking my spelling right now.

 

[Ballofanxiety]

Also I’ve been smoking weed since I was 14 and it always helped until now. It doesn’t do much now. I don’t want anything stronger.

 

[Ballofanxiety]

Aaand I also forgot to mention that I go to sleep to escape the feeling and I have to tell myself everyday that I won’t feel like this forever. I sit on my couch literally 24/7. I sleep here too. I only get up to go to the kitchen and bathroom.

 

[PJTAVISH]

Ever heard the expression “idle hands are the devils playground”?

From what your describing is does in fact sound like anxiety/panic. My recommendation would to lay off the weed and get up off the couch and get some exercise. It’s been scientifically proven that ones who are not active can develop and anxiety disorder. If you have a bike go for a ride 30-45 mins twice a day. If you don’t have a bike then go for brisk walks. And remember suicide is never the answer. If your having theses thought here if a number to call for someone to talk to
tel:1-800-273-8255. There are also some good books available to help you learn to rid anxiety/panic. Keep in touch, we’re all here to help.


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[Concernedgal]

Hi.
This is far from being hard to understand....this is me.
I cried for you because I know......I know it exactly what your going through.
This is a battle and you must win.....you must!.
You say that u don't have money for a therapist so let me tell you what mine tells me.
Our brains automatically work different frim most.
We are naturally pessimistic.
Most people look at the world and see a wonderful place but, we look at the world and see what could go wrong.
We see panic attacks occurring where we can't do much about them,we see oNE occurring in a grocery store ,restaurant and other places in the ( outside world) and it's substantially worst because we could be embarrassed in public but, when we are home .....we have a chance to control them better. But, that's dangerous thinking.
You have to know that there is no difference between having a panic attack at home or elsewhere.
You have to leave your house again trust me.
It's going to be so tough but, you can do it.
First things first.
Retrain your brain.
When you go outside ..your going to feel apprehensive and agitated, that because your brain is telling you that this is dangerous,.
Remember when you were a child and you mom or gaurdian taught you not to touch the hot stove and you did it anyways. ..well...for us ...the outdoors and being in a car is like that hot stove and our brains somehow got the idea that it is dangerous also . I bet after you touched that stove...you never did it again ..did you?
Anyways..we were talking about retraining your brain.
You have to go back outside and while your out there ..it's'all about being brave and telling yourself.. (i'm not going to die..this is highly uncomfortable but, i'm not going to die).
Now ..how many panic attacks have you had?? A few I bet.
Have any of them killed you? Of course not because although scary panic attacks are not deadly. Now say that to yourself right now. ( PANIC ATTACKS ARE NOT DEADLY). This I'd something you will have to tell yourself everyone you leave the house . This is going g to take a long time and you will need more patience then you have ever needed in your whole life.
Take a care package with you when you go out ( your cell phone, anti-anxiety medication, a snack, bottled water and maybe even a comfort item on long distances. ..I bring sunglasses so the sun doesn't (bug) my eyes.
My therapist called this (exposure therapy ) it's helped me so far. The fear isn't gone by a long shot but,.. I am living my life like it is normal again.
I have a 40 hr a week job,I go places and do things now.
I will always be doubtful and afraid but,...i'm not going to let it control my life and the trick to (winning) when it comes to anxiety. .is to live.
We can't help who we are but, we can help how we let it effect our lives. We suffer a mental illness and it's kinda like diabetes there is only treatments sweetie...there is no cure.
Best of luck to you and if you have anymore questions. ...please don't hesitate to ask.

 

[Ballofanxiety]

Thank you so much...I know what I have to do I’ve always known and I just thought someone else telling me what I already know would just make me upset. I just hate being uncomfortable. I’ve only had 2 major panic attacks and both times I thought dying would be so much better than that feeling. When I’m panicking I have no clue what anything is or what I want or what I’m thinking. And I’d rather go through that at home by myself instead of trying to hide it in front of other people. I don’t even want to leave my house anymore. I used to want to travel and go on an airplane and get a van and go wherever. Now I’m not just scared to do it, I actually don’t want to anymore. I know I just need to slowly leave my house more. It’s gonna be so hard. I just have to deal with that and I know it and that’s whats frustrating. But I have to.

 

[Concernedgal]

Thank you so much...I know what I have to do I’ve always known and I just thought someone else telling me what I already know would just make me upset. I just hate being uncomfortable. I’ve only had 2 major panic attacks and both times I thought dying would be so much better than that feeling. When I’m panicking I have no clue what anything is or what I want or what I’m thinking. And I’d rather go through that at home by myself instead of trying to hide it in front of other people. I don’t even want to leave my house anymore. I used to want to travel and go on an airplane and get a van and go wherever. Now I’m not just scared to do it, I actually don’t want to anymore. I know I just need to slowly leave my house more. It’s gonna be so hard. I just have to deal with that and I know it and that’s whats frustrating. But I have to.

The hardest thing that you will ever have to do is this.. sweetie thi' us not going to be easy but, you have to try to be stronger than this. ...which I know you are.
God would never give us more than we can handle.
Although that' so hard to believe right now but, you will get through this. ..I promise but, it will take time.
And I understand how you feel...your alot like me.
You want this to be over now and right now. We are not very patient people. Lol but, I know you can get through this.

 

[Jenniferlynn]

Thank you so much...I know what I have to do I’ve always known and I just thought someone else telling me what I already know would just make me upset. I just hate being uncomfortable. I’ve only had 2 major panic attacks and both times I thought dying would be so much better than that feeling. When I’m panicking I have no clue what anything is or what I want or what I’m thinking. And I’d rather go through that at home by myself instead of trying to hide it in front of other people. I don’t even want to leave my house anymore. I used to want to travel and go on an airplane and get a van and go wherever. Now I’m not just scared to do it, I actually don’t want to anymore. I know I just need to slowly leave my house more. It’s gonna be so hard. I just have to deal with that and I know it and that’s whats frustrating. But I have to.

Good morning sweetheart. There is this Dr on you tube u should look up. Dr harry Barry. He has helped me. Always and i do mean always know that panic attacks are comfortable NOT dangerous. Just look him up he is good. I couldnt afford a therapist either in the beginning but found a place that helps u with no insurance. Maybe you have a place like that where u live. But check him out. Sending you so much love and light

 

[Ballofanxiety]

Thank you! I will look him up.

 

[NanaTane]

Somebody please help me. In the end of April this started. I’ve always had social anxiety and I’ve always got anxious before going somewhere and I always thought it was normal. It was my normal. Well one day I just woke up with a racing heart and I couldn’t help but cry. Sometimes I felt like bawling and I tired but tears wouldn’t come out. It was prom night so I assumed it was because of that. I went to prom and had an amazing time. The next day same thing happened and I didn’t know what was going on so I went to the ER because I was scared that something was really wrong with me. Everything medically looked fine and they said I’m having a panic attack and offered prescriptions. I told them I didn’t wanna feel more out of it then I already did. It was the weirdest feeling. I can only really describe it as feeling out of it and out of touch and genuinely scared about nothing. I started getting better as the days went by. I distracted myself with tv or my phone. Since the day it started it’s been a daily struggle. I can’t call to renew my food stamps, I can’t leave my house. I can’t think about leaving without having a small panic attack. I don’t have a doctor or a therapist or any money for either of those things and I’m only 18. I’ve contemplated suicide so I can stop feeling like this. I’m way too scared to do it and I couldn’t do that to my family but I can’t live like this. I’m just sitting down watching a show right now and I feel so horrible. I get stomach aches every morning (Not pregnant). I can’t leave my house. I can’t even think about leaving. Even staying here I freak out. I’d rather have anxiety in the comfort of my own home. Sorry if this is hard to understand. It’s hard to understand myself. I’m scared. I’m scared I’ll never be okay. Sometime I have anxiety about anxiety in general or the world and I deep think about existence and meaning. I’m so so scared of my thoughts and feelings. What should I do? I know it’s all in my head so I don’t even know why I’m posting this. I feel like I know everything and nothing at the same time....god I’m so scared. And I’m sorry if I spelled anything wrong I’m not too worried about checking my spelling right now.

Hi I am so sorry that you are going through this I can totally relate I thoythoi was alone for so long,and it is so hard to talk about as we feel it make it worse but it doesn't I absolutely understand how you are feeling .
I often feel like I don't want to go outdoors or anywhere or do anything ,not even to the store or with friends.i too have been embarrassed of thinking what if I freak out in front of people and have to call 911 . I always feel this sense of dread that something bad is going to happen.
What helps me
I take deep breaths ,and I take walks even if it's around the corner and back ,it will help the most ,I thought that just sitting home and avoiding people and things would keep me from getting anxious and we do feel like it will for the moment but we have to go outside fresh air is the best air , sunlight is the best healing !!
Find your niche for something that you enjoy wether it's reading,music,writing,dancing abythany and keep yourself occupied as much as possible as hard as it is to concentrate just keep trying ,I'm still dealing with it daily
As far as you questioning your presence I have been there to ,it's called derealization if I'm not mistaking,that just mean that we are to intune , overthinking into ouraelour and this makes us confused as to what's going on outside of our body we are to concentrated on ourselves .
Im definitely here for you to talk with please feel free , because I'm suffering of GAD.
AND HYPOCHONDRIAC AND I HAVE GERD AS WELL SO I HAVE ALOT OF ISSUXITO BUT WE CAN ALL HELP EACH OTHER

 

[Erinn]

I know exactly how you’re feeling. I have had a diagnosed anxiety disorder since sophomore year of high school and now I am a senior in college. It is honestly a daily struggle to get out of bed and face the world. I am medicated, and that has helped tremendously, but each year I have to increase the dosage because it stops being effective. Recently, I’ve had a big change in my life, and I’m having daily panic attacks again, which are so exhausting and terrifying.

My mom, who has anxiety issues as well, says we need to just keep moving forward. Keep doing the things that cause our anxiety and eventually the constant exposure to these things will allow us to be more comfortable with them. It’s gonna suck for a while, but it will subside soon enough.