Hurt&Hopeful
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Hey guys - I have a bum knee that has been acting up, and I have been stuck in bed for a few days. I found out today that I'll have to have surgery. Nothing major or life-threatening, but it will require general anesthesia and leave me immobilized afterwards for a bit. I have been doing some pretty intense therapy over the past year, and I feel like I finally got a medication balance that is working for me - I haven't had a panic attack in several weeks, even when anxiety has run high. I've managed to work through it and feel "safe," even over holidays, which are usually tough for me. So when I got the call today about test results, and they started describing surgical options, it's like my arms and legs went cold and I felt like I was going to throw up. It came on pretty hard and fast, and I had cancel everything for the rest of the day and just breathe/cry. I know most of you have been there before...
So I think there are 2 things really triggering this right now - first, I feel completely helpless right now, and that's making my anxiety run high. Second, I HATE hospitals and especially surgery because of some trauma in my past. The out of control feeling when you're going under anesthesia, the waking up not knowing where you are, the lights, the ceiling tiles in the room, the smell, all of it. I had a really hard time doing an MRI this week. But in this case, I don't really have a choice - I have to do this. I have to get through it. Anyone got helpful tips? How do you get through the things that you really just can't avoid?
So I think there are 2 things really triggering this right now - first, I feel completely helpless right now, and that's making my anxiety run high. Second, I HATE hospitals and especially surgery because of some trauma in my past. The out of control feeling when you're going under anesthesia, the waking up not knowing where you are, the lights, the ceiling tiles in the room, the smell, all of it. I had a really hard time doing an MRI this week. But in this case, I don't really have a choice - I have to do this. I have to get through it. Anyone got helpful tips? How do you get through the things that you really just can't avoid?