hatboxghost
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Hi everyone!
I’ve been reading other stories on here while trying to find a place to chat with others who suffer like myself pretty regularly. My dad recently had a heart attack (53) and since then I have been obsessing over my own personal health. My dad smokes and has smoked pretty much his whole life and does not have a great diet or eating habits. However, I can’t stop thinking about “what if this happens to me?”
Now, a little about me. I do have GERD/IBS/Gilbert’s Syndrome. But recently my epigastric pains/discomfort have caused me some scary moments.
One night I woke up from a sleep with terrible pains around my upper abdomen and chest. First thing I did: went to Google (big mistake)
I couldn’t go back to sleep and the pains kept getting worse. I woke my boyfriend up and told him to take me to the ER.
Meanwhile, two weeks before this event, I had an EKG because I told my GP that I was having heart palpitations (it came back normal) I also had blood work done (all perfect except bilirubin because of Gilbert’s Syndrome)
I was also schedule to start wearing a cardiac event monitor later that week.
Anyway, I get to the ER, they check my blood pressure (141/91) it’s NEVER that high. Within 5 minutes I’m getting connected to another EKG. Nurse comes back and says doctor has given it the “a-okay”
I get taken back and they start talking to me about my symptoms give me a chest x-ray... low and behold. Anxiety and acid reflux.
I have since worn the cardiac event monitor, no abnormalities, all good.
I saw a GI and scheduled an endoscopy for my epigastric pain and acid reflux.
I had that on Monday of this past week, and they said I have a Hiatal Hernia and signs of Gastritis. Which could be making my epigastric pains more intense.
But I’m still finding myself going back to “what IF it’s my heart” when I have these symptoms.
I also have pretty bad TMJ and will get shooting pains in my jaws randomly and of course that sends me spiraling. I’m going to a dentist in 2 weeks so hopefully they can help me with my teeth grinding and TMJ.
I know a lot of you have similar symptoms it seems and I’m just trying to help myself stop thinking about “what if”
I’m so afraid of dying or really not being able to stop myself FROM dying. I’m only 28. I used to never think about this stuff. But after my dads heart attack, I just can’t get away from the reoccurring thoughts. I get a symptom and it’s to Google I go. And I KNOW better! I talk to my boyfriend about it and I’m so scared of it interfering with our relationship. Consciously I know everything I can possibly know about my health and that is I’m pretty dang healthy. But I have these subconscious ideas and thoughts that just won’t stop.
I’m going to see a therapist the end of this month as well and I’m really hoping he can help get me on the road to stop thinking catastrophically. I’m really looking for any kind of relief I can get at this point!
Sorry for the long post but thanks for reading anyway!
I’ve been reading other stories on here while trying to find a place to chat with others who suffer like myself pretty regularly. My dad recently had a heart attack (53) and since then I have been obsessing over my own personal health. My dad smokes and has smoked pretty much his whole life and does not have a great diet or eating habits. However, I can’t stop thinking about “what if this happens to me?”
Now, a little about me. I do have GERD/IBS/Gilbert’s Syndrome. But recently my epigastric pains/discomfort have caused me some scary moments.
One night I woke up from a sleep with terrible pains around my upper abdomen and chest. First thing I did: went to Google (big mistake)
I couldn’t go back to sleep and the pains kept getting worse. I woke my boyfriend up and told him to take me to the ER.
Meanwhile, two weeks before this event, I had an EKG because I told my GP that I was having heart palpitations (it came back normal) I also had blood work done (all perfect except bilirubin because of Gilbert’s Syndrome)
I was also schedule to start wearing a cardiac event monitor later that week.
Anyway, I get to the ER, they check my blood pressure (141/91) it’s NEVER that high. Within 5 minutes I’m getting connected to another EKG. Nurse comes back and says doctor has given it the “a-okay”
I get taken back and they start talking to me about my symptoms give me a chest x-ray... low and behold. Anxiety and acid reflux.
I have since worn the cardiac event monitor, no abnormalities, all good.
I saw a GI and scheduled an endoscopy for my epigastric pain and acid reflux.
I had that on Monday of this past week, and they said I have a Hiatal Hernia and signs of Gastritis. Which could be making my epigastric pains more intense.
But I’m still finding myself going back to “what IF it’s my heart” when I have these symptoms.
I also have pretty bad TMJ and will get shooting pains in my jaws randomly and of course that sends me spiraling. I’m going to a dentist in 2 weeks so hopefully they can help me with my teeth grinding and TMJ.
I know a lot of you have similar symptoms it seems and I’m just trying to help myself stop thinking about “what if”
I’m so afraid of dying or really not being able to stop myself FROM dying. I’m only 28. I used to never think about this stuff. But after my dads heart attack, I just can’t get away from the reoccurring thoughts. I get a symptom and it’s to Google I go. And I KNOW better! I talk to my boyfriend about it and I’m so scared of it interfering with our relationship. Consciously I know everything I can possibly know about my health and that is I’m pretty dang healthy. But I have these subconscious ideas and thoughts that just won’t stop.
I’m going to see a therapist the end of this month as well and I’m really hoping he can help get me on the road to stop thinking catastrophically. I’m really looking for any kind of relief I can get at this point!
Sorry for the long post but thanks for reading anyway!