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newbie, hypocondriac, now it's colon cancer!!!

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Hi guys

how are you doing? I've been trying to go over my colon cancer fear. I can say i felt better for some days, then something trigger my anxiety back, i start reading the stories of colon cancer survivors, and i start to think again "i am sure i have it too".
As always, what triggers my fear is the stool appereance and consistency. I still go twice a day, and again, in the morning the stool is 8 of 10 times mushy. I started again eating long leaves vegtables two nights ago, rocket salad (arugula) especially. Yesterday in the afternoon i did good with well formed stool, perfect brown color, and i thought "WOW, maybe i just needed more of these vegtables". So in the night i ate more, and this morning i had an horrible looking mushy stool, a small quantity, greeny (i guess from the vegtables), with some gases, and that just was sufficient to make me feel horrible again, i started to think that something must be wrong, that i cannot have my stool changing so much without having something serious. And then...Dr Google did his job.

It's so hard. I think i may ask for a colonscopy to the gastroenterologist that saw me, but he was the one saying i don't need one.

Sometimes a voice rationally tries to speak to me, asking me "do you really have any bowel cancer symptoms?" . I have no blood in the stools, i did a quick anemy test (the home made kits you buy online) one month ago and came back negative, no weight lost.

Do i have what may be called "change in bowel movements"? From what i read, a change is really going more, or going less, and i go like always, twice a day, morning and afternoon. Yes, my stool has been varying from 4 to 6 in the bristol scale, but as a doctor told me "unformed stool are not pathological", and also i must say, maybe i've always gone like that and didn't notice, didn't pay attention to it (i remember always going soft more than hard in my life). And sure, cancer does not show many signs, but if one that way, then i could be having in this moment brain cancer, lung cancer etc.

My mind is exploding. I live waiting for the next bowel movement to feel better or worse. I don't want to live like that, i can't even work.
 
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You’re eating too much fiber at one time and your body isn’t used to it. That will cause mushy stools
 
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You’re eating too much fiber at one time and your body isn’t used to it. That will cause mushy stools
thanks for being there for me robby.

the funny thing is in the afternoon my stool is almost perfect. Guess it really must be IBS
 
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@vinbaker i agree with RobbyH- overdoing it on the veggies makes things mushy and green for me as well. I have been doing better taking nightly Citrucel and slowly adding fiber into my baseline diet. I recommend the Citrucel!
 
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@vinbaker i agree with RobbyH- overdoing it on the veggies makes things mushy and green for me as well. I have been doing better taking nightly Citrucel and slowly adding fiber into my baseline diet. I recommend the Citrucel!
hey, thank you

i don't think we have citrucel here in italy, i have to find something similar
 

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hey, thank you

i don't think we have citrucel here in italy, i have to find something similar
Hi Vin,
I'm pretty new here too. I've been reading this thread. I just got a colonoscopy a month ago. I was sure I had diverticulitis or IBS or something. One time I bled about a raquetball size on tissue and a little in stool. I'm 47 so my risk might be a little higher, not sure. Here is the thing ... most people I have heard of having colon cancer have bleeding that is not just some on the toilet paper or a red chunk. I know 2 people in my life that have had this. One had it in his family genetics and he bled a lot. He was pretty far along and lived and is fine. The other bled a whole lot. She lived and is great as well. Colon cancer is a slow growing one. I should be good for another 10 years. Before that, I had one 8 years ago. Both showed nothing suspicious. You are very young and it sounds like you are physically fit. The chances are really bad that you have this. Almost nothing since you got the ultrasound. My advice is to get the colonoscopy if you can't let this go. I hope you are talking to a psychiatrist and/or psychologist. You are not alone, people are wonderful here. I will be praying for your peace of mind and good health.
 
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Hi Vin,
I'm pretty new here too. I've been reading this thread. I just got a colonoscopy a month ago. I was sure I had diverticulitis or IBS or something. One time I bled about a raquetball size on tissue and a little in stool. I'm 47 so my risk might be a little higher, not sure. Here is the thing ... most people I have heard of having colon cancer have bleeding that is not just some on the toilet paper or a red chunk. I know 2 people in my life that have had this. One had it in his family genetics and he bled a lot. He was pretty far along and lived and is fine. The other bled a whole lot. She lived and is great as well. Colon cancer is a slow growing one. I should be good for another 10 years. Before that, I had one 8 years ago. Both showed nothing suspicious. You are very young and it sounds like you are physically fit. The chances are really bad that you have this. Almost nothing since you got the ultrasound. My advice is to get the colonoscopy if you can't let this go. I hope you are talking to a psychiatrist and/or psychologist. You are not alone, people are wonderful here. I will be praying for your peace of mind and good health.
thank you notnew but new lol. I thank you so much for your word, and yes, i just started to see a psychologist, just one time, i will see him june 19th again, we will be seeing each other 8 times to see if it helps. And yes, i thought about the colonscopy, but i still wish to go over this without doing the colonscopy, i would like to have the strenght to find some peace of mind by my own
 

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thank you notnew but new lol. I thank you so much for your word, and yes, i just started to see a psychologist, just one time, i will see him june 19th again, we will be seeing each other 8 times to see if it helps. And yes, i thought about the colonscopy, but i still wish to go over this without doing the colonscopy, i would like to have the strenght to find some peace of mind by my own
I'm very glad you are seeking treatment. Without it, I would never have accomplished anywhere near as much in life. I admire you for wanting to be strong, but remember that this is a physical illness with the brain and you wouldn't be weak for seeking complete peace about the situation either, no need to suffer if the suffering is bad. Wishing you the best!
 
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Hi guys,

as you can see from my posts, it comes and go. Whenever my poo does not convince me, i get back in the hole. The main problem and the thing that worries me is that any time i eat something out of my usual diet, my morning poo is close to diarrhea (i would say number 6 bristol scale), with a lot of gas. Yesterday i ate some vegtables spring rolls i bought at the supermarket and this morning i had that kind of stool.

Now i know it's junk food, but why now any time i eat something like this it affects me so much? I read stories of people who had colon cancer and started with bloating and digestive problems.

i wish i could have one full normal week
 
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