hi guys,
i'm a first timer, italian, 38 years old, apparently healthy. This year I pratically diagnosed on myself all kind of cancers and issues. From multiple sclerosis to an anal cancer when I had a lump in my anus that turned out to be a thrombosed hemmoroids that now disappeared.
Now, in the last month, my concern has been my colon. I started having bloating after a south american trip, bloating than now has gone, but my stools still look awkward, in the morning i go to the bathroom and i do little broken pieces, that infamously is considered a symptom of colon occlusion (even if i read on a book that actually is more of a misundersting and it does not represent a clear symptoms of colon cancer), then in the afternoon the stool is more of a normal shape and type.
Still i feel like the quantity of my daily stool has decreased.
yesterday morning, checking my stool, in one of the little pieces i had, i saw something like a blood string, jelly, red. I tried to pick it up in my fingers, It went away with the water when i washed my hands.
I panicked so much, i nearly fell on the floor. I still don't know if it was blood (my mind tells me it was) or tomato, since yesterday in my lunch i ate pasta with tomato and i am also taking charcoal, whose side effect is to leave pieces of food in the stool.
Obviously, the red spot disappeared when i went to the bathroom in the afternoon, so i guess it was tomato.
after this morning i woke up and went to the bathroom perfectly (great stool lol), i was feeling fine and tried no to get anxious. But it looks like i'm not so lucky. In the morning i had a shake that i always have for the gym (2 eggs, protein powder, peanuts butter) and then after i ate pasta for lunch i had to go to the bathroom and i had a mild diarrea episode.
My mom laughs at me saying anybody would have these kind of episodes having the shake i have in the morning...And frankly is the first time i have this powder and i put it in my shake. So a logic person would think that was the reason
BUT since i'm not in a logic moment of my life, the worst thoughts fullfilled my mind again, and i'm thinking again that this wouldn't happen to an healthy person, that i must have colon cancer, that i should have a total check right now, that i can't wait one week for the gastro appointment, and then at the same time i'm scared he will tell me to do a colonscopy, because if he says so then he 's thinking that i have something serious....then i think that if he won't examinate me much i will keep with my anxiety...
I just don't know guys, i feel horrible. My anxiety is ruining my life, my wife has a lot of pacience but i feel like soon it will end, i cannot do anything i think 24-7 about me and my possible illness, now i'm pretty sure i have colon cancer, it's something i can't take off my mind.
i'm a first timer, italian, 38 years old, apparently healthy. This year I pratically diagnosed on myself all kind of cancers and issues. From multiple sclerosis to an anal cancer when I had a lump in my anus that turned out to be a thrombosed hemmoroids that now disappeared.
Now, in the last month, my concern has been my colon. I started having bloating after a south american trip, bloating than now has gone, but my stools still look awkward, in the morning i go to the bathroom and i do little broken pieces, that infamously is considered a symptom of colon occlusion (even if i read on a book that actually is more of a misundersting and it does not represent a clear symptoms of colon cancer), then in the afternoon the stool is more of a normal shape and type.
Still i feel like the quantity of my daily stool has decreased.
yesterday morning, checking my stool, in one of the little pieces i had, i saw something like a blood string, jelly, red. I tried to pick it up in my fingers, It went away with the water when i washed my hands.
I panicked so much, i nearly fell on the floor. I still don't know if it was blood (my mind tells me it was) or tomato, since yesterday in my lunch i ate pasta with tomato and i am also taking charcoal, whose side effect is to leave pieces of food in the stool.
Obviously, the red spot disappeared when i went to the bathroom in the afternoon, so i guess it was tomato.
after this morning i woke up and went to the bathroom perfectly (great stool lol), i was feeling fine and tried no to get anxious. But it looks like i'm not so lucky. In the morning i had a shake that i always have for the gym (2 eggs, protein powder, peanuts butter) and then after i ate pasta for lunch i had to go to the bathroom and i had a mild diarrea episode.
My mom laughs at me saying anybody would have these kind of episodes having the shake i have in the morning...And frankly is the first time i have this powder and i put it in my shake. So a logic person would think that was the reason
BUT since i'm not in a logic moment of my life, the worst thoughts fullfilled my mind again, and i'm thinking again that this wouldn't happen to an healthy person, that i must have colon cancer, that i should have a total check right now, that i can't wait one week for the gastro appointment, and then at the same time i'm scared he will tell me to do a colonscopy, because if he says so then he 's thinking that i have something serious....then i think that if he won't examinate me much i will keep with my anxiety...
I just don't know guys, i feel horrible. My anxiety is ruining my life, my wife has a lot of pacience but i feel like soon it will end, i cannot do anything i think 24-7 about me and my possible illness, now i'm pretty sure i have colon cancer, it's something i can't take off my mind.
