Looking for hope

[Hurt&Hopeful]

@Hurt&Hopeful omg i did hit my head against the wall once !! Sorry for all my questions but when you say LOUD is it just in the brain or it’s actually racing thoughts ? Because ive talked to so many people and i feel nobody understands my feeling... its actually a loud feeling in the brain but no thoughts attached to it ...

Me too!!! It can start out as thoughts, but the loud feeling is like a low roar in there. Like my brain is going to explode. It just feels 'loud' and it's hard to explain. It used to scare me (was I going crazy? Hearing voices?) I know now that it'spart of an extreme 'fight or flight' response - it starts with outside noises seeming too loud. Someone breathing or talking. A dog barking far away. And all of the colors around me seem too bright, and smells are too strong... Every part of my brain is just overstimulated, and I may not notice it except that I'm really irritable and start snapping at people for no reason. When full panic attack sets in, that's when the 'loud brain' happens - it's just a physical response, and it feels crazy, but it's not. And yes, I admit that I've hit myself on the head trying to make the craziness stop in the past. It just makes it worse ...

 

[Wolfie09]

Sorry to hear this guys, hopefully one day you can find the peace you deserve..I honestly don't deal with negative thoughts, my anxiety is almost directly tied to my digestive tract..A simple stomach ache gets my anxiety going lol Heartburn? Forget about it..I can't stand any sensations in the middle of my chest.. This has been a wake up call for me...I quit taking ibuprofen, coffee, pot, cut cigarettes in half (hopefully quit eventually) I litterly do nothing but put positive stuff in my stomach, probiotics, green tea, oatmeal, vitamins etc..I'm 37 and have no kids but me and my girl want one soon, I'd like to be alive long enough to see him/her grow up..

I have been tackling my anxiety with cold showers and meditation... It's one of the best combos I have tried.. Sometimes I almost feel to good after a cold shower, it freaks me out lol It's like the cloud thats over me disappears, at least for a short while lol

I have developed a morning phobia that takes several hours to shake off which sucks..For what ever reason I tend to feel better late at night, almost like my body is tired of fighting and let's it's guard down..I have had tons of trouble sleeping, usually getting about 4 hrs a night.. Once I open my eyes it's impossible to fall back asleep.. Like I'm full of adrenaline first thing in the morning..

 

[Peaceofmind]

I just did some mindfulness with headspace and i found pretty interesting what they said. That in life when you dont pay too much attention to something it tends to disappear even thought its still there. Like a noisy sound youre used to and you tend to forget it as if its not there. Like the sound, the thoughts, the noise in your head, it can “disappear” in a way because you wont pay as much attention to it even though deep down its still there

 

[Hurt&Hopeful]

@Peaceofmind I am writing this because I also need to hear it today. There IS hope. I am struggling right now because of the pandemic, weird transitions in life/school/work because of it, and the death of someone very important to me this weekend. My anxiety is off the charts and I am depressed and crying a lot. But I don't feel hopeless! I have been where it feels hopeless, because I thought it would never get better, but it did. And over the years I have learned so much about getting through these rough times and enjoying my life in spite of them. That's the definition of hope for me. We got this.

 

[Wolfie09]

One of my favorite artist, really hits home...