PRguru_cfj
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I can't complain much about my life, I got a good family, I basically can do what ever I want, and live in a good house. But as time progressed in school my anxiety started flare up and as I got older It become more toxic. Everytime somthing wrong happpend I became a 10 year olds tantrum for failing somthing so simple and I get angery and can't do anything right. Ever since collage started and all the real life things such as loans and relationships. Ait feels like all this is making me worse to fast
I have NEVER done somthing violent that would really destroy me. Now I can't talk to some one write, do homework on time, Express my emotions with out getting angry over them, and worse of all I'm starting to let people down. I am break ko ing things more and more by my clumsiness, my brother and sister hates me, I'm not doing well in university, and I made my parents mad at me again.
I'm nothing but a ******* loser who is selfish, lazy, over indulging weak little **** you is nothing but a blight upon everyone. An annoying little nat who serves no purpose for any one. No matter how hard I try weather it be sports, jobs, even talking to the opposite sex( hell even my own). I have no idea how I survived thus long with out ending it or exploding. I truly and fail 5 times over. Only thing I can do is play video games and lie about my life. I tried to get help and talk about it but I am an annoying little prick who serves no benefit to know one. I just want to not existence to feel this pain any more. I WANT TO JUST GIVE UP
I have NEVER done somthing violent that would really destroy me. Now I can't talk to some one write, do homework on time, Express my emotions with out getting angry over them, and worse of all I'm starting to let people down. I am break ko ing things more and more by my clumsiness, my brother and sister hates me, I'm not doing well in university, and I made my parents mad at me again.
I'm nothing but a ******* loser who is selfish, lazy, over indulging weak little **** you is nothing but a blight upon everyone. An annoying little nat who serves no purpose for any one. No matter how hard I try weather it be sports, jobs, even talking to the opposite sex( hell even my own). I have no idea how I survived thus long with out ending it or exploding. I truly and fail 5 times over. Only thing I can do is play video games and lie about my life. I tried to get help and talk about it but I am an annoying little prick who serves no benefit to know one. I just want to not existence to feel this pain any more. I WANT TO JUST GIVE UP
I can't complain much about my life, I got a good family, I basically can do what ever I want, and live in a good house. But as time progressed in school my anxiety started flare up and as I got older It become more toxic. Everytime somthing wrong happpend I became a 10 year olds tantrum for failing somthing so simple and I get angery and can't do anything right. Ever since collage started and all the real life things such as loans and relationships. Ait feels like all this is making me worse to fast
I have NEVER done somthing violent that would r eally destroy me. Now I can't talk to some one write, do homework on time, Express my emotions with out getting angry over them, and worse of all I'm starting to let people down. I am break ko ing things more and more by my clumsiness, my brother and sister hates me, I'm not doing well in university, and I made my parents mad at me again.
I'm nothing but a ******* loser who is selfish, lazy, over indulging weak little **** you is nothing but a blight upon everyone. An annoying little nat who serves no purpose for any one. No matter how hard I try weather it be sports, jobs, even talking to the opposite sex( hell even my own). I have no idea how I survived thus long with out ending it or exploding. I truly and fail 5 times over. Only thing I can do is play video games and lie about my life. I tried to get help and talk about it but I am an annoying little prick who serves no benefit to know one. I just want to not existence to feel this pain any more. I WANT TO JUST GIVE UP.
I have always been a joke, everybody laughs at me and doesn't take me seriously. Looking down at me, mocking me and when I defended my self IM THE BAD GUY. No matter how hard I try I fail I am laughed at and I feel like I don't even exist. I can't even feel my emotions right anymore. Both physically and emotionally. I don't want to lose my self but I feel like it's only a matter of time.
I'm fainted to die alone, in a hole of depression loneliness and faithless. I pray but think no one is listening. It's just me alone not being able to TRULY rursut any one or let alone tell anyone about it. So that's what I am here. So if you can listen give me one good reason how a worthless wretch could live on when much more deserving people die everyday yet I'm still live. Give me one good reason to trust or believe in anything. I'm done with life but to scared of pain to end it. Jus convince me not to become a monster
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