Cancer, stroke, deadly virus, heart attack, going blind, going deaf

Pick your poison. Which one scares you the most? Or should I say....which one do you focus on the most, obsess about the most, and RESEARCH the most.

I guess my biggest one will always be cancer. I was already scared of brain tumors at the age of 12. And now I seem to be totally focused on any type of oral cancer - constantly looking in my mouth with a flashlight (which is forbidden, but I keep finding flashlights and doing it anyway.) And if one side of my mouth doesn't exactly match the other side....WATCH OUT!

 

My poison is being reincarnated into another life after this one and not having sorted my head out beforehand. I research it a lot and try to work out what I can do to raise my vibration frequency. I know it seems crazy to some people, and I often get a blank when I bring up the conversation with anyone.

It is my main focus. I have it in my head that if indeed we are born again, that I would be born in similar circumstances. Obviously, I can't clarify this and have no proof. Yet I am consumed by it. I tend to not think about illnesses, or what illness I may catch or develop. I think that everything is energy and has a vibration. That means thoughts and speech. Words written down, or pictures. I think that it all vibrates. If for example, an advert comes on TV about cancer relief, I turn it over. Even if I just turn it over for a few minutes. It is important to me to not see that advert because the advert itself will vibrate out towards me and could cause me to have cancer. It probably wouldn't but that is what is in my head.

I am also concerned about karma. I have spent months upon months chanting the karma busting mantra. I don't know if it works but it makes me feel better in my own little world.

 

I think cancer is the one health condition that scares me the most as well. It is not like you can feel it or see it until it has progressed in your body. It takes medical tests to detect and I have always feared a doctor finding it when it is too late.

Cancer treatments are horrible from all that I have read and seen. Doctors fill your body with chemicals or have to cut you open to get it out. There are so many toxins that can lead to cancer as well.

I began to be terrified of cancer when I was a kid and started forming breasts. I would cry thinking that I may have breast cancer and my mom always had to give me a gentle reminder that I was forming.

 

I donot have any such poisons. I take life as it comes and believe in living in the moment. Of course, those of you who are obsessed with a poison must find it difficult to believe otherwise. Have you tried to reason out exactly why are you so obsessed with a particular problem?

May be if you can dig deeper and grab the root of the problem and try to talk to someone about it, you may be able to come to terms with the situation.

This situation can be quite stressful to those who are into it. It really helps to discuss the concern with someone close.

 

I think that cancer scares me the most because it can happen to anyone without any warning or reason at all. It scares me even more because I have a family history of cancer. I hope that I will never have to deal with cancer or at least will not have to deal with it for a very long time.

 

My father died of cancer so it's one of my biggest fears. His illness and death was traumatic for me. I had expected him to live long because his family had very good genes and many of his older relatives died in their late 80s or 90s. He was a chain smoker who used to smoke 3 packs of cigarettes a day. While his lungs stayed strong and healthy up to his death, it was prostate cancer spreading to his brain that ultimately killed him. It was difficult to imagine him going back to his doctors and being told that he's getting worse though he feels that he's getting better with his new diet. I don't think that I'm strong or brave enough to accept that kind of diagnosis/death sentence and to go through the different stages of treatments only to succumb to the illness.

 

How about..them all. Lol. Like today. I was thinking that maybe if I git a good check up then maybe I would be able to face my anxiety better. The biggest worry about having anxiety is the prospect of something else being wrong. Especially my heart . When I have a panic attack I think since cardiac symptoms are the first symptoms is it a heart ailment or is it a panic attack. I really need to make sure my heart is fine or I fear that I may never get through my amaxophobia "riding in a car" if the prospect of a heart attack or stroke is taken out of the equation. And my brother is hiv positive so as hard as this is for me to admit. .. I kinda fear him because of his status. As wrong as that is. .. I just can't bring myself to get too close because I suppose i'm kinda afraid of him because of it. I remember when I found out he had it.. I had noticed that I was tired and had no energy and I got afraid and went and got tested. I tested negative of course but, that was when I found out that I was suffering from depression. Isn't crazy that you think you have one thing... when you have something else? It surprised me to know that I was depressed and it was effecting me like that. And going blind... surprisingly. ... it would bother me to some extent but, if agoraphobia is the fear of open spaces.... then.... wouldn't not having to look at it kind of solve it? Yikes!... I know... I just said that huh? And I would be devastated if I lost my sense of hearing. My life would suffer tramendously if I couldn't listen to my loved ones voices or to hear myself sing because that is one gift that God gave me and not to sound too "full of myself", but, I do have a pretty good voice. And cancer.. I suppose to some extent I am but, I suppose when it comes to all of these ailments... if its god will ... then it gods will.