My life is in shambles. I’m a healthy (enough) 19 y/o American college student. I’ve burned bridges with my family. My friends hate having me around now. I had an avoidable fight with my longtime committed girlfriend while she’s on her dream study trip. My brain is in a constant state of thinking I’m terminally ill and I know there is absolutely no way I could have been infected. I have pushed every single person I loved in my life to the brink with my anxiety. I’m finding it hard to find reasons to be happy everyday now. I’m sure that my family can’t stand me and am now completely aware of the possible extinction of any hope I had of a family of my own and a happy future. I’ve done this to myself and I’ll die alone, hopefully at an older age than this one. All because I let a chemical imbalance and a phobia that has no basis of truth to it take hold of my life. Don’t be like me. Learn from my mistakes, seek help before you push everyone you love to hatred of you. Because I’m surrounded by people. But none of them can stand me. And that sh!t kills me inside.