Howlingvapor
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At night my anxiety is like a gnawing feeling, like I’ve forgotten something or I’m screwing up in some way that I don’t see. When I’m alone with my thoughts it’s hard not to dwell on the negative ones. It’s a rush of ideas, fears, doubts, and emotions. It’s like my inner thoughts won’t shut up. I also have ADD so silencing my mind has always been difficult for me. Guided sleep meditation tracks are really the only thing that helps. It’s even worse when I’m in a relationship because all I do is worry about something I said or did and I can’t talk about it with them because they’re asleep. Sometimes I just end up watching tv until 3 in the morning trying to avoid having to sit with my thoughts. The worst was having a panic attack before bed because it takes me so long to calm down after I’ve had one. I’ve spent a lot of nights clutching a pillow and trying not to think about something traumatic that happened a few years ago. I’m a lot better now, but sleeping has always been hard for me
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