Weird thoughts

[nelly with a why]

Hey Guys,

I have decided to do my bachelor thesis on "anxiety". I would like to create a book that shows anxiety and the different forms it plays in ones life. I deal with anxiety myself, which at times leads me to experience minor panic attacks. Often I just have weird thoughts that I can shake off quickly. Since I've started my thesis, I have created a list and realized how ridiculous some of my thoughts can be.
I would love to hear some of the thoughts that have crossed your mind throughout the day.

Here are a few of my examples:

1: Sometimes I think about the things I’ve said to others from years ago....I wish I could explain what I truly meant to say. I always wonder if they have a totally wrong impression of me. I start to think if I DID say the right thing, how much of my life would be different. (Job interviews, first dates, presentations, normal social gatherings)

2: I live on the top floor of my apartment building. It’s on the third level under the roof. I have planned every exit strategy incase of a fire break outs. One plan to save us and our dogs (one dog is a Great Dane) is to somehow gracefully toss them onto the balcony below. Only to repeat this process one more time. Nothing must can go with this plan…

3: Every time I’m about to send out an important email, I constantly double check what I wrote and over and over. Once I have (approved) clicked “send”, I start to think that maybe it didn’t actually get sent… maybe i sent it to the wrong person? Maybe the email got lost or I misspelled the email address. Once again I go back and double check my email.


4: I had a piece of paper with the address of my grandma. I had the thought that I should tear it up before throwing it away to keep her safe. If at this time I felt this was too weird, I would keep the paper just to be safe.

Thank you for your answers

 

[Rinka]

Hi @nelly with a why thank you for your extensive interest in the world of anxiety

If you don’t mind, please give me and if think the other some time to write answers for you. Given that it’s for your BA it should be usable.

I will giv3 you some answers as soon as I have more time to write. This morning. Don’t worry

 

[nelly with a why]

Hello @Rinka I would really appreciate that. Thank you so much for your time and support

 

[Rinka]

Hey Guys,

I have decided to do my bachelor thesis on "anxiety". I would like to create a book that shows anxiety and the different forms it plays in ones life. I deal with anxiety myself, which at times leads me to experience minor panic attacks. Often I just have weird thoughts that I can shake off quickly. Since I've started my thesis, I have created a list and realized how ridiculous some of my thoughts can be.
I would love to hear some of the thoughts that have crossed your mind throughout the day.

Here are a few of my examples:

1: Sometimes I think about the things I’ve said to others from years ago....I wish I could explain what I truly meant to say. I always wonder if they have a totally wrong impression of me. I start to think if I DID say the right thing, how much of my life would be different. (Job interviews, first dates, presentations, normal social gatherings)

2: I live on the top floor of my apartment building. It’s on the third level under the roof. I have planned every exit strategy incase of a fire break outs. One plan to save us and our dogs (one dog is a Great Dane) is to somehow gracefully toss them onto the balcony below. Only to repeat this process one more time. Nothing must can go with this plan…

3: Every time I’m about to send out an important email, I constantly double check what I wrote and over and over. Once I have (approved) clicked “send”, I start to think that maybe it didn’t actually get sent… maybe i sent it to the wrong person? Maybe the email got lost or I misspelled the email address. Once again I go back and double check my email.


4: I had a piece of paper with the address of my grandma. I had the thought that I should tear it up before throwing it away to keep her safe. If at this time I felt this was too weird, I would keep the paper just to be safe.

Thank you for your answers

I am someone who is thinking a lot about what could have been done or should have been done. I also get very embarrassed thinking about my past an some situations. Especially if they were social situations. I still think about some incidents that happened at school and get red and embarrassed all over again.

My life back then was more a fantasy in my head rather then real. I used to be in love with a guy in school and did some stupid things, that when I’m thinking about them now it’s just ahhhhh.

I think I have been very obsessed with the thought or fantasy of being with him, that I lost reality and thought that it was really possible and I think I started stalking a bit. Not that I followed him around but searching for pictures on fb and going to parties where I know he was there.

Today when I’m thinking about this, I just want to dig a whole lie myself down and hide from the world out of embarrassment.

Funny thing is, I think a week or two ago, I would have been able to tell more, but weirdly enough, I feel quite content in social aspects, might be because I’m starting to settle with my partner and it starts to feel more secure.

Saying that, my health anxiety is still a thing though. It’s hard for me to become content with that.

I’m constatntly checking my body over for lumps and bumps. It sometimes drives me crazy.

 

[nelly with a why]

@Rinka Thank you so much! I think that writing and sharing these examples allows others to realize that they’re not alone

 

[janemariesayed]

Hello @nelly with a why

I get PTSD which may be a bit of CPTSD as well. I have sudden thoughts and flashbacks every day. It may be a street or an image of a person, but it comes and hurts like I've been hit with a thousand bullets. My therapist thinks it is because of where my memories are going to go next. I have to work really hard at staying grounded and taking in my present surroundings.

 

[Rinka]

Hello @Rinka I would really appreciate that. Thank you so much for your time and support

I’m glad I could help

 

[Sophie leigh]

My anxiety clings it self to near enough everything, I'm pretty much scared of everything so I find myself constantly thinking strange or perhaps slightly dramatic things because of my fears.
Here's one not sure what you'll think but..
I'm terrified of drugs, doing them, seeing them, being near them or someone on them. My fear causes me to question who had my £20 note or £10 ect before it was payed to a shop and then given to me because I think what if someone who sniffs cocaine on the daily used this note to do it and theirs excess coke on their and its somehow going to find its way into my system an kill me.
I have these thoughts all day long about everything, not sure if that helps.

 

[janemariesayed]

In the UK we have plastic tenna's and fivers now. It means if we forget them in our pocket and they go through the washing machine, that they will survive it. I don't know where you live, but one idea is that you could perhaps spray your money with an antibacterial solution and that would kill all the germs. Money is really dirty, it's got to be one of the dirtiest things on the planet.