I've gotten a few fears put aside for the moment, but I'd been getting an itch/pain on a spot on my back that I thought was a bug bite; turns out it's a mole. I've had it forever, but it's bigger and darker and uglier than it is in photos where I can see it (I mean, the only photo I have where it's visible isn't terribly clear but it's definitely bigger and more misshapen...granted so is my entire body these days) . Seeing the derm on Monday and hoping it's just a dysplastic mole in the very early stages of changing, but the pain/itching and darkening has me convinced otherwise. Already planning legal arrangements post-death, etc.
I feel like I can't keep my head above water. I'm constantly fighting with myself going back and forth between "it's anxiety" and "no this time you're right." And neither is good. Obviously one is better than the other, but living in permanent anxiety for no good reason isn't good either.
I go through periods of being kind of okay, but they never last. And they're getting rarer and rarer.
I feel like I can't keep my head above water. I'm constantly fighting with myself going back and forth between "it's anxiety" and "no this time you're right." And neither is good. Obviously one is better than the other, but living in permanent anxiety for no good reason isn't good either.
I go through periods of being kind of okay, but they never last. And they're getting rarer and rarer.