This morning I had a 'third' assessment, but this time it was with a female specialist in child abuse. It was held at a refuge for women but they can only offer me ten weeks counselling at the most. After talking with me for nearly an hour she told me that I was a rarity and would need longer than the normal ten weeks recovery. She also advised me to go back to my doctor to see if I can find a counsellor who can be more long term. The therapist also said that if I start counselling, it will be traumatic to start it all over again in ten weeks. I got given the choice of seeing her or leaving it and going to see my doctor and asking for more long term. The problem is that on the NHS counselling is referred out to agencies and the funding is very low so the agencies can only offer ten weeks. I felt disappointed, to say the least, and a bit angry too. Angry that I am expected to get over it all in two months. What a joke really, how can anyone get over it all in two months. So I decided to go along with this little ten week therapy course, and also, see my doctor. I will ask him to find me someone who can see me for longer. I don't really know what else I can do but I am not holding out hope anymore of getting help. I was looking forward to getting this therapy as they are specialists in the area I need. At least that is what I thought but it seems to be more of a different kind of abuse that is dealt with there. As it is a women's refuge, I'm inclined to think that the abuse they deal with there is women who are on the run from abusive partners. Feeling sad and disappointed.