So stressed out please help

[Yagmur]

Hi guys.
Today at workplace i was the last one to go toilet to wash my hands. I checked the tap it was closed as far as i can remember. I was going to go back check but just told my self dont be silly its off and told myself its my ocd and resisted my self. After that we left and locked down the shop. But now i cant get my mind off and regret not checking it again. I’m scared that the tap is on and will burst and burn down the flat above us. I dont have any keys and ashamed to tell my manager as they will think im crazy. Only thing i can do is wait for tomorrow. Im so worried someone will get hurt cause of me and I imagine my self going prison because i caused harm. And to make it worst the tap was those oversink water heater ones not sure if electric or not.

 

[MATD]

Just your doubts playing on you.

 

[Cirqueme]

You're fine, you turned it off.... don't let anxiety win....fight the thoughts.

 

[bigjetplane23]

it’s your OCD! don’t let it win.

 

[Jonathan123]

Hi guys.
Today at workplace i was the last one to go toilet to wash my hands. I checked the tap it was closed as far as i can remember. I was going to go back check but just told my self dont be silly its off and told myself its my ocd and resisted my self. After that we left and locked down the shop. But now i cant get my mind off and regret not checking it again. I’m scared that the tap is on and will burst and burn down the flat above us. I dont have any keys and ashamed to tell my manager as they will think im crazy. Only thing i can do is wait for tomorrow. Im so worried someone will get hurt cause of me and I imagine my self going prison because i caused harm. And to make it worst the tap was those oversink water heater ones not sure if electric or not.

I appreciate how difficult this is for you. Logic and reason cease to exist in OCD. But sit down and TRY to reason it out. Ask questions.
Could the worse happen? What are the odds against it? Would I have heard by now if something had happened? Why would leaving a tap on cause a problem? You will find the answers to these questions virtually zero! Now that may not stop you worrying. OCD can be very persistent. The next step is to see a counsellor or some such person to help with the OCD before it takes over your life.

 

[Yagmur]

I appreciate how difficult this is for you. Logic and reason cease to exist in OCD. But sit down and TRY to reason it out. Ask questions.
Could the worse happen? What are the odds against it? Would I have heard by now if something had happened? Why would leaving a tap on cause a problem? You will find the answers to these questions virtually zero! Now that may not stop you worrying. OCD can be very persistent. The next step is to see a counsellor or some such person to help with the OCD before it takes over your life.

Thanks a lot, I feel much better today. Yes I guess I need to see a councellor.

 

[Nutmeg]

Hi guys.
Today at workplace i was the last one to go toilet to wash my hands. I checked the tap it was closed as far as i can remember. I was going to go back check but just told my self dont be silly its off and told myself its my ocd and resisted my self. After that we left and locked down the shop. But now i cant get my mind off and regret not checking it again. I’m scared that the tap is on and will burst and burn down the flat above us. I dont have any keys and ashamed to tell my manager as they will think im crazy. Only thing i can do is wait for tomorrow. Im so worried someone will get hurt cause of me and I imagine my self going prison because i caused harm. And to make it worst the tap was those oversink water heater ones not sure if electric or not.

Your brain works like mine does! I've had many scenarios like this, where I've thought it all the way through to going to jail. It's OCD, and it's hell. I wish I could tell you how to stop thinking it, because I know that's what you need to do.. however I also know that telling someone to stop having an intrusive compulsive thought, is like telling someone not to think about breathing.. as soon as you say it, it's all you think about.

The only thing I find that does help me sometimes, is to think of "this time next week, I will look back and everything was totally fine". Because it always is.

 

[Jonathan123]

Oh yes! It reminds me of the old test. 'Stop thinking about pink elephants.' 'Never think of them again', and you find that's all you can think about! The human mind is so complex.

 

[Yagmur]

Your brain works like mine does! I've had many scenarios like this, where I've thought it all the way through to going to jail. It's OCD, and it's hell. I wish I could tell you how to stop thinking it, because I know that's what you need to do.. however I also know that telling someone to stop having an intrusive compulsive thought, is like telling someone not to think about breathing.. as soon as you say it, it's all you think about.

The only thing I find that does help me sometimes, is to think of "this time next week, I will look back and everything was totally fine". Because it always is.

Thanks a lot for your comment. Yes everything was fine nothing bursted but i will soon find another scenario its soo hard.