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So Confused after doctor visit

suzzeeb

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So I posted before about wondering if I was having symptoms of withdrawal from Klonopin after not taking for several days. Well I couldn't get it out of my mind or stop worrying about it so as terrified as I was to hear what the doctor had to say about it, I made an appointment and just got back. He said that the muscle twitches I was having were not signs of withdrawal and that I didn't take enough to be addicted. So while that made me feel better, he told me he thinks I have OCD and wants me to start Prozac! Now I have a whole new worry. I don't know why that bothers me so much. I guess I just never thought I had OCD. I always thought I had GAD and HA, and never thought HA was associated with OCD, but he said it is, and that's why I can't get rid of the thoughts that scare me. I mean I do have kind of a weird thing about wanting my house to be clean all the time, but I don't spend hours a day cleaning or anything. I just don't like clutter. I don't over-check doors or anything for that matter so OCD never crossed my mind too much. My mom would check her stove and doors over and over and I thought she was just nervous. She also cleaned her house every day and wanted her stuff just so but I am so much more lax than that. My grandkids come over 3 days a week and destroy my house, and while it annoys me quite a bit sometimes I'm used to it so mostly can let it go. Great something else to make me feel like I'm weird!
 

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OCD is not all about checking things. Locks and lights and things like that. There are many forms of it. You could ask him why he thinks you have OCD. What he sees when he talks to you to make him come to that conclusion. I have no idea how you could simply talk to a person and then say they have OCD. It would take a bit more than that. Something you might see that they do. It might be you worrying too much over things. He might be viewing that as OCD. Really bad example if he is. That could simply be just a form of anxiety. It depends on the extent of it. How much you might worry. Let us use your medication. How many times did you ring him over the Klonopin? He could be just taken it all as a form of OCD. Not all about door locks and light switches.
 

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First off, my thought is that if he suspects you have OCD he should recommend you see a psychologist. Let that specialist really assess you in depth, over several visits and come to that conclusion, if it’s warranted.

OCD and HA have a proven connection. Interestingly, I played a role in the study that determined that. It was the mid or late 90’s and I enrolled in a study at NY Presbyterian in NYC. Turns out I was in the placebo group, but it was groundbreaking in determining the connection. With HA, we are obsessed with checking our bodies, Google, etc.

I was not at all surprised by the connection. Like you, little things I do give a clue. If I see two towels on the rack in the bathroom, I need to have them hanging straight and even. My wife just tosses them on there any old way. The toilet paper annoys me if the roll isn’t in the middle of the spool, with equal space on either side.

Don’t worry for a minute about OCD, but I would myself rather have a mental health practitioner diagnose that rather than a GP who looks at Hemorrhoids every day.
 

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I do have several visits scheduled for next month with a very experienced psychologist. I saw my last counselor for several years and decided to see someone with more experience, but the one I was seeing never mentioned that at all.

That was the first time I ever asked him about the Klonopin. He basically said he has always suspected I had OCD because he said I have intrusive thoughts that I can't forget about (the Klonopin thing I guess he meant?) I have no idea why he thinks I have intrusive thoughts. Honestly, I do joke about having OCD because I like my house clean, but my closets and pantry are usually not organized, my car isn't perfectly clean. I clean my house thoroughly once a week and just pick up the rest of the week. I've been trying to figure out if that could be the case but honestly I have my doubts. I'm sure I have some tendencies toward wanting things a certain way, but not to the degree I would think would be OCD. The only thought I can't ever get out of my mind is about sleep! I figured that was just a sleep anxiety thing, like the more I worry about it the less I am able to sleep.

I don't know what I have anymore. I am in a bad way right now. I thought that visit would make me feel better about the whole Klonopin thing, but I don't. I feel terrible physically, wake up with my heart racing, sick to my stomach, can't sleep at all now without taking 1/2 Klonopin, and honestly I haven't felt this bad in years. The first time I went through feeling like this was about 15 years ago, and at that time my previous doctor said I had an anxious depression, which makes more sense to me, but who knows.

Is it possible to get so worked up about something that even when your not that worried about it anymore you still spiral? I think sometimes I'm just worried about why I'm always so worried and scared! I'm scheduled to have 2 wisdom teeth removed on Friday, but I'm wondering if i should postpone it with how I am feeling or just get it over with.

Also, though, I was already starting to feel an increase in anxiety for several months, just not so constantly, since having that ablation for PVCs. That really freaked me out and I was in a constant state of fear about it all for months and even afterwards. So maybe it is just the perfect storm for me to have a meltdown.
 
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