Wolfie09
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Hey guys, my name is Mike and here is my story..
I'm 37 and was diagnosed with GAD and Gerd about 15 years ago..I do not have health insurance so I have to fight through this day after day with self medication...I have my good stretches and bad stretches.. Last year at this time I was working for a janitorial company and had to be up early (5am) , I then would feed my animals, hop on my bike, take a 5 mile ride to work and then repeat the process to come home, I felt great, I never had time to think, only react..Now fast forward a year and I'm a complete mess...First and foremost I got laid off of my job several months before the coronavirus lock down, I was already stuck in my house for months...Well one day like a light switch i started to feel weird, mainly dijestive issues with some shortness of breath.. Now I have both anxiety and Gerd which makes it hard to differentiate between the two as they tend to have similar symptoms..I started by changing my diet and taking coffee out of my life as I figured my gerd may be given me respiratory issues..Well no matter what I tried it didn't seem to work, Prilosec, pepcid etc..So I started to worry that it could be something more serious (as usual)..So day after day it became my routine to pace around my house and property as my girl is at work (I'm alone all day) ..I litterly became a stranger in my own home as I would always have my hoodie and shoes on Incase I wanted to jump right outside...Then just recently within the last week, I started to get more weird symptoms such as my belly always feeling numbish and warm to the touch, I've also been getting a sunburn like sensation through my stomach, arms and shoulders...This freaked me out as I have never experienced this before, I also have been having trouble with respiratory as I continue to think about it day after day.. Mornings are the worst for me as I wake up with my hands and feet already full of sweat, like my body is ready for another fight that day. Just like it seems that each night I hit a point where I start to feel better and relax (takes quite sometime)..I have also become extremely emotional as I feel like crying the minute my girl leaves for work and when she goes to bed... Exercise has always been my outlet as a nice cardio workout can give you a euphoric like feeling but even exercise is becoming a challenge, I worry that I can't catch my breath when I get tired.. I'm litterly stuck in my house day after day with nothing to do but over think..I started to wonder if this was physical or mental in nature..But I started noticing something, whenever I get up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom or catch a midnight snack, I wouldn't have any discomfort in my stomach, my breathing feels normal and even the numbness seemed much less, I was also able to fall right back to sleep...If it was a physical issue it would normally cause discomfort at all times. I've also noticed that I get worse as the day wears on, makes sense given I do nothing but think about it and pace around waiting for my GF to come home.. This is litterly ruining my life as I have no desire to do anything, cook, clean, etc..I never have an appetite and I have been losing a decent amount of wait, most nights I'm happy if I get 6 hours of sleep in..The one thing that gives me the most relief is also the reason why I'm convinced all this pain and suffering is due to my anxiety, that would be herbal teas, I find myself drinking several cups a day.. Especially teas with chamomile, just 30 min after drinking tea I tend to start getting hungry, it seems to relax all my muscles and in turn my breathing improves, it also tends to make you drowsy and almost forget about my problems.. Unfortunately I'm not sure how to turn the page here as it's like groundhogs day. I also live about 5 hours from any family or friends so I don't have much of a support system... I'm glad I found this site to allow me to get some stuff off my chest..One day life will be better, just hope sooner rather than later...
I'm 37 and was diagnosed with GAD and Gerd about 15 years ago..I do not have health insurance so I have to fight through this day after day with self medication...I have my good stretches and bad stretches.. Last year at this time I was working for a janitorial company and had to be up early (5am) , I then would feed my animals, hop on my bike, take a 5 mile ride to work and then repeat the process to come home, I felt great, I never had time to think, only react..Now fast forward a year and I'm a complete mess...First and foremost I got laid off of my job several months before the coronavirus lock down, I was already stuck in my house for months...Well one day like a light switch i started to feel weird, mainly dijestive issues with some shortness of breath.. Now I have both anxiety and Gerd which makes it hard to differentiate between the two as they tend to have similar symptoms..I started by changing my diet and taking coffee out of my life as I figured my gerd may be given me respiratory issues..Well no matter what I tried it didn't seem to work, Prilosec, pepcid etc..So I started to worry that it could be something more serious (as usual)..So day after day it became my routine to pace around my house and property as my girl is at work (I'm alone all day) ..I litterly became a stranger in my own home as I would always have my hoodie and shoes on Incase I wanted to jump right outside...Then just recently within the last week, I started to get more weird symptoms such as my belly always feeling numbish and warm to the touch, I've also been getting a sunburn like sensation through my stomach, arms and shoulders...This freaked me out as I have never experienced this before, I also have been having trouble with respiratory as I continue to think about it day after day.. Mornings are the worst for me as I wake up with my hands and feet already full of sweat, like my body is ready for another fight that day. Just like it seems that each night I hit a point where I start to feel better and relax (takes quite sometime)..I have also become extremely emotional as I feel like crying the minute my girl leaves for work and when she goes to bed... Exercise has always been my outlet as a nice cardio workout can give you a euphoric like feeling but even exercise is becoming a challenge, I worry that I can't catch my breath when I get tired.. I'm litterly stuck in my house day after day with nothing to do but over think..I started to wonder if this was physical or mental in nature..But I started noticing something, whenever I get up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom or catch a midnight snack, I wouldn't have any discomfort in my stomach, my breathing feels normal and even the numbness seemed much less, I was also able to fall right back to sleep...If it was a physical issue it would normally cause discomfort at all times. I've also noticed that I get worse as the day wears on, makes sense given I do nothing but think about it and pace around waiting for my GF to come home.. This is litterly ruining my life as I have no desire to do anything, cook, clean, etc..I never have an appetite and I have been losing a decent amount of wait, most nights I'm happy if I get 6 hours of sleep in..The one thing that gives me the most relief is also the reason why I'm convinced all this pain and suffering is due to my anxiety, that would be herbal teas, I find myself drinking several cups a day.. Especially teas with chamomile, just 30 min after drinking tea I tend to start getting hungry, it seems to relax all my muscles and in turn my breathing improves, it also tends to make you drowsy and almost forget about my problems.. Unfortunately I'm not sure how to turn the page here as it's like groundhogs day. I also live about 5 hours from any family or friends so I don't have much of a support system... I'm glad I found this site to allow me to get some stuff off my chest..One day life will be better, just hope sooner rather than later...
