New & Anxious

[AnxiousAsian]

Hello there. This is my first time really typing this all out, so, bare with me.

I am 22, I'll be 23 in November and I'm really excited about having my first birthday party!

I'm diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome, anxiety depression, and C-PTSD. Over the last few months I've noticed my anxiety worsening. I am engaged to a wonderful man who is currently working 11 hour shifts so we can move to a new apartment, a nicer one with more privacy.

Last week I attempted suicide and spent 3 days voluntarily in a psychiatric unit. But I've noticed my old anxiety symptoms have returned since I got home.

When I am alone I feel sad and like I might cry. I never cry though, as of yet. I am no longer suicidal and am making plans to better myself and my life. But my anxiety is holding me back.

I am a collaborative writer but lately the concept of collaboration with other people via Discord servers has made me scared and fearful, as well as leaving my house and being without my fiance. My anxiety is through the roof and I want to ease it.

Currently I am medicated. 20mgs Lexapro, 600mgs Gabapentin, and 100mgs Seroquel (for sleep). I also take Propranolol for tachycardia. I also see a therapist twice a month and I intend to work on this with her as well.

The anxiousness makes me so tired and I am glad I may have found a place to share this and get tips on battling this demon. Thanks for reading.

 

[Cuchculan]

Welcome to the forum. Good to have you as a member. We all suffer from one thing or another. So we are all here for each other. I know it can be tough at times. We can look at our lives and wonder how we ended up with this hand in life? But it is the heand we have been dealt. So we have to try and find ways to make things work for us. Which can be a battle in itself. But we are all fighters. Been through so much and still fighting on. That makes us stronger than most people out there. Just try and keep your mind busy. Works for most people. Distracts us from our inner thoughts. Together we will get through this.

 

[AnxiousAsian]

Welcome to the forum. Good to have you as a member. We all suffer from one thing or another. So we are all here for each other. I know it can be tough at times. We can look at our lives and wonder how we ended up with this hand in life? But it is the heand we have been dealt. So we have to try and find ways to make things work for us. Which can be a battle in itself. But we are all fighters. Been through so much and still fighting on. That makes us stronger than most people out there. Just try and keep your mind busy. Works for most people. Distracts us from our inner thoughts. Together we will get through this.

I have found ASMR and music help me to keep myself busy and mins occupied, as well as certain video games and sometimes looking at memes. But you're right, we are all warriors.

 

[Cuchculan]

I love ASMR videos. They can be so relaxing. Music is my first love. If it is good I will listen to it. Helps me when I leave the house. Music blasting in my ears. Then at night, a radio on.

 

[ladybj]

Hello there. This is my first time really typing this all out, so, bare with me.

I am 22, I'll be 23 in November and I'm really excited about having my first birthday party!

I'm diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome, anxiety depression, and C-PTSD. Over the last few months I've noticed my anxiety worsening. I am engaged to a wonderful man who is currently working 11 hour shifts so we can move to a new apartment, a nicer one with more privacy.

Last week I attempted suicide and spent 3 days voluntarily in a psychiatric unit. But I've noticed my old anxiety symptoms have returned since I got home.

When I am alone I feel sad and like I might cry. I never cry though, as of yet. I am no longer suicidal and am making plans to better myself and my life. But my anxiety is holding me back.

I am a collaborative writer but lately the concept of collaboration with other people via Discord servers has made me scared and fearful, as well as leaving my house and being without my fiance. My anxiety is through the roof and I want to ease it.

Currently I am medicated. 20mgs Lexapro, 600mgs Gabapentin, and 100mgs Seroquel (for sleep). I also take Propranolol for tachycardia. I also see a therapist twice a month and I intend to work on this with her as well.

The anxiousness makes me so tired and I am glad I may have found a place to share this and get tips on battling this demon. Thanks for reading.

Hi and welcome to the forum
Reading post in the forum you will see that you are not alone. It is good that you are taking steps to work on you..that is a great step. Therapy can make a World of difference. Hang in there and continue working on you. We are all dealing with making our life better day by day..sometimes minute by minute.