Karina Berard
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I was recently diagnosed last year that I have PTSD along with anxiety and panic attacks, I am only 21 years old. I've dealt with too much things in my childhood that I shouldn't have experienced. I've gone through hell and back.
DCF was called in, I was homeless, moved thousands of times, lived back and forth with my parents since they were divorced, also lived with my aunts and cousins a lot. I've seen terrible things that shouldn't have happened. I've seen my mo overdosed thousands of times. I've been in car crash because she took meds when she wasn't supposed to take while operating a vehicle. I was placed with my dad for 11 years.
It was my Senior year in high school where I saw the police arrest my dad right in front of me in my driveway because of my so called best friend accused my dad of raping her. I saw my dad in an orange jumpsuit for a month and could only talk to him through the glass on a phone. I constantly was talked to by cops in and out of school for months. constantly in and out of courts and talking to lawyers. It was a never ending nightmare. It went on for 6 months. I've missed several days of school because of this.
4 months later my brother attacked me, grabbed me, threw me to the ground, got on top of me and choked me while he was under the influence and whatever drug he was on. I punched him in the face to get him off of me. Blood came flying all over me and I cannot stand blood so it made me sick really bad. Cops were called in and saw my brother get arrested. Cops had to calm me down because I went into a really bad panic attack and I couldn't calm down. Eventually they got me to calm down and told them what had happened. The trial and court dates went on for months. To this day I can't be around my brother, I'm still scared of him.
I've feared from cops since I was 5 years old. To this day I freak out when I see them. My anxiety will kick in and will have an anxiety attack. When they talk to me, I choke up and I can't breathe. They have never treated me bad when they came to the rescue and saved me from incidents, it's the flashbacks I get because of their involvements with me.
DCF was called in, I was homeless, moved thousands of times, lived back and forth with my parents since they were divorced, also lived with my aunts and cousins a lot. I've seen terrible things that shouldn't have happened. I've seen my mo overdosed thousands of times. I've been in car crash because she took meds when she wasn't supposed to take while operating a vehicle. I was placed with my dad for 11 years.
It was my Senior year in high school where I saw the police arrest my dad right in front of me in my driveway because of my so called best friend accused my dad of raping her. I saw my dad in an orange jumpsuit for a month and could only talk to him through the glass on a phone. I constantly was talked to by cops in and out of school for months. constantly in and out of courts and talking to lawyers. It was a never ending nightmare. It went on for 6 months. I've missed several days of school because of this.
4 months later my brother attacked me, grabbed me, threw me to the ground, got on top of me and choked me while he was under the influence and whatever drug he was on. I punched him in the face to get him off of me. Blood came flying all over me and I cannot stand blood so it made me sick really bad. Cops were called in and saw my brother get arrested. Cops had to calm me down because I went into a really bad panic attack and I couldn't calm down. Eventually they got me to calm down and told them what had happened. The trial and court dates went on for months. To this day I can't be around my brother, I'm still scared of him.
I've feared from cops since I was 5 years old. To this day I freak out when I see them. My anxiety will kick in and will have an anxiety attack. When they talk to me, I choke up and I can't breathe. They have never treated me bad when they came to the rescue and saved me from incidents, it's the flashbacks I get because of their involvements with me.