Lots of different anxiety lately.. some more subtle, some not. I’ve also noticed most of my anxiety comes at night.

[JayJay123]

I’m a huge hypochondriac. Lately I’ve had myself convinced I have kidney problems or diabetes because of ridges in my nails and thinking they look white and weird for a 23 year old. I’ll show them to my mom and girlfriend, and they both say every time that they look like normal fingernails. I’m starting to see that they do for the most part and I might be overthinking this, as usual.

I’ve also been dealing with a lot of general anxiety as well, and I feel like it just came on pretty recently. I’ve been thinking and worried about family and friends dying despite having no reason to think they will anytime soon. I just find myself getting sad about the possibility of me having to live without them one day.

I also find myself thinking and worrying about death a lot. Like how I’m scared of dying, I’m scared of what does or doesn’t come next, I don’t want people close to me being sad whenever it happens. I’m only 23 and relatively healthy, so I don’t have a particular reason to be worried about it. I just find myself thinking and worrying about it a lot still.

I’ve also been having spiritual anxiety. I’m a Christian and have been for years, though I’m not as involved with church as I used to be and I guess you could say I’ve fallen off at times.I worry about and doubt whether I’ve ever had a genuine relationship with Christ. I’ve always believed that doubts, especially spiritual doubts, should be explored and worked through rather than ignoring them. I’ve also always been interested in arguments from all sides for all things including religion. I’ve always been interested in the history and context of the Bible, as I love history and studied it at uni. Just lots of anxiety there.

I’ve noticed that my anxiety tends to creep out at night. I’m not sure if it’s because I feel more alone, since I know my family, friends, and girlfriend are asleep or what. It’s weird, because I’ve always considered myself a night person. A lot of the general and existential anxiety has been more subtle in that it doesn’t usually feel like an outright panic attack, rather like feelings of uneasiness that are in the background.

 

[Ggirlangel93]

I related to alot of the things you said. I am also a hypochondriac and one of my main fears has always been death. Fear of dying. Any little symptom i get i start worrying about it non stop and always think i have a disease or will die. Also same i also get more anxious at night. As soon as it gets dark and gets closer to bed time my mind starts racing and the anxiety really sets in. It's a scary feeling for me laying in bed nervous while everyone in the house is asleep. It's like you're alone with your thoughts while the house is silent so the thoughts become louder. Its hard for me to give advice cause im a mess myself but just know you are not alone

 

[Bobnnat]

I related to alot of the things you said. I am also a hypochondriac and one of my main fears has always been death. Fear of dying. Any little symptom i get i start worrying about it non stop and always think i have a disease or will die. Also same i also get more anxious at night. As soon as it gets dark and gets closer to bed time my mind starts racing and the anxiety really sets in. It's a scary feeling for me laying in bed nervous while everyone in the house is asleep. It's like you're alone with your thoughts while the house is silent so the thoughts become louder. Its hard for me to give advice cause im a mess myself but just know you are not alone

I relate to everything you said Ggirl. I hate lying in bed, all dark and quiet. While other people I’m sure think calming thoughts as they drift off, my fears come out to play.

 

[Mcarva]

OMG I could have written this post. I have suffered with hypochondriasis, anxiety, depression, fear of dying, etc. since I was 12 years old. I am now 62 and the suffering continues. Funny that you say your anxiety is worse at night. Since the pandemic, I am finding my anxiety starts to go through the roof at night. To the point that many times I can't sleep and I'll get up and go downstairs and sit on the couch for a bit. I wish I had some helpful advice for you, but as you can see, I am suffering with pretty much all that you are going through and don't know how to get out of it myself. Hope it helps that at least you know you are not alone.

 

[WorryWimbleBec]

I feel I could of written this . I’m 24 year old female and I had severe anxiety approx 9 years ago which I received hypnotherapy for and it completely fixed it ( of suppressed it ). Now during the pandemic it’s all come flooding back giving me no quality of life . I constantly worry about death, every little niggle I ultimately think it’s the worse disease / diagnosis and think I’m going to die . Take right now as an example it’s 5 am in UK I’ve woken up with a numb leg and numb feeling in half my face I ultimately think omg is it a stroke , is it MS , turn on the light straight away wiggle it to see if it goes back to normal ,is it swollen, start looking at my face to make sure the sensations feel the same, taking pictures of my mouth comparing a change to previous pictures . Realistically we both know chances are my numb leg is because I’ve slept in the same position all night and I probably have a bit of face congestion from being in that same position, I’ve bit my inside of my cheek so I’ve been in a deep sleep and anxious in my sleep.
I have a minor heart condition , leaky heart valve ( much very minor only mild symptoms and no treatment as it’s very minor) but that doesn’t help my health anxiety. I have a young son and every time he coughs I think he’s going to choke , every time he goes outside I think and playing on concrete I think he’s gona fall down and hurt himself.
I brought myself a blood pressure machine , thermometer and oximeter and find myself constantly doing them multiple times a day obsessing over the readings.
I have found myself with dizziness and low blood pressure ( every time I stand up I think I’m going to faint to the point I have to sit straight down, I’ve been crawling around on my hands and knees practically ) the past 5 days and I’ve spoke to about 4 different doctors gone to hospital twice and they can’t find anything wrong. I’ve been signed off work for a week to try and get myself today but finding it very hard to cope . My partner doesn’t understand how I feel , he gets frustrated with me which I understand , I wouldn’t want to live with me ... I feel like I’m losing all quality of life because In my head is feels so REAL . Living with constant fear and dread is horrific . Your not alone xx