I’m a huge hypochondriac. Lately I’ve had myself convinced I have kidney problems or diabetes because of ridges in my nails and thinking they look white and weird for a 23 year old. I’ll show them to my mom and girlfriend, and they both say every time that they look like normal fingernails. I’m starting to see that they do for the most part and I might be overthinking this, as usual.
I’ve also been dealing with a lot of general anxiety as well, and I feel like it just came on pretty recently. I’ve been thinking and worried about family and friends dying despite having no reason to think they will anytime soon. I just find myself getting sad about the possibility of me having to live without them one day.
I also find myself thinking and worrying about death a lot. Like how I’m scared of dying, I’m scared of what does or doesn’t come next, I don’t want people close to me being sad whenever it happens. I’m only 23 and relatively healthy, so I don’t have a particular reason to be worried about it. I just find myself thinking and worrying about it a lot still.
I’ve also been having spiritual anxiety. I’m a Christian and have been for years, though I’m not as involved with church as I used to be and I guess you could say I’ve fallen off at times.I worry about and doubt whether I’ve ever had a genuine relationship with Christ. I’ve always believed that doubts, especially spiritual doubts, should be explored and worked through rather than ignoring them. I’ve also always been interested in arguments from all sides for all things including religion. I’ve always been interested in the history and context of the Bible, as I love history and studied it at uni. Just lots of anxiety there.
I’ve noticed that my anxiety tends to creep out at night. I’m not sure if it’s because I feel more alone, since I know my family, friends, and girlfriend are asleep or what. It’s weird, because I’ve always considered myself a night person. A lot of the general and existential anxiety has been more subtle in that it doesn’t usually feel like an outright panic attack, rather like feelings of uneasiness that are in the background.
I’ve also been dealing with a lot of general anxiety as well, and I feel like it just came on pretty recently. I’ve been thinking and worried about family and friends dying despite having no reason to think they will anytime soon. I just find myself getting sad about the possibility of me having to live without them one day.
I also find myself thinking and worrying about death a lot. Like how I’m scared of dying, I’m scared of what does or doesn’t come next, I don’t want people close to me being sad whenever it happens. I’m only 23 and relatively healthy, so I don’t have a particular reason to be worried about it. I just find myself thinking and worrying about it a lot still.
I’ve also been having spiritual anxiety. I’m a Christian and have been for years, though I’m not as involved with church as I used to be and I guess you could say I’ve fallen off at times.I worry about and doubt whether I’ve ever had a genuine relationship with Christ. I’ve always believed that doubts, especially spiritual doubts, should be explored and worked through rather than ignoring them. I’ve also always been interested in arguments from all sides for all things including religion. I’ve always been interested in the history and context of the Bible, as I love history and studied it at uni. Just lots of anxiety there.
I’ve noticed that my anxiety tends to creep out at night. I’m not sure if it’s because I feel more alone, since I know my family, friends, and girlfriend are asleep or what. It’s weird, because I’ve always considered myself a night person. A lot of the general and existential anxiety has been more subtle in that it doesn’t usually feel like an outright panic attack, rather like feelings of uneasiness that are in the background.