just tell me if you know this feeling...

[nobody]

hey person who is reading this ...

I feel like everything is moving... just not me ... I feel like I'm stuck. i'm in my room all day ... i have school from 8 a.m. to 3 p.m. ... i know that may not sound like much ... but i'm still a teenager and my parents don't understand ... if i would tell them my mom would say "yes, but I worked all day today!" ... i mean yes, i know ... but i'm not you ... i'm a teenager ...

do other parents do that?

and every time i try to talk about it i cry and then it's over ... i can't talk when i cry ...

And the next day my mother pretends nothing has happened ...

She just told me it's because of puberty!



anyways... has anyone experienced that?

 

[Cuchculan]

I spent the best part of 10 years in the house. Mainly because of panic attacks and the likes every time I tried to leave the house. So I get the whole staying in part. But even I got fed up looking at the four walls of my bedroom. Began to fight back and push myself out of the house. If for now you don't want the company of others, would you even be bothered going for a cycle? Fresh air and exercise. Just so you don't end up doing what I done. I wasted a whole decade. I once recall I said it was like life was going at a thousand miles per hour and I was going at 10 miles per hour. Everything just seemed to be happening so fast around me. It was too much for me back then. From my experience I would say to try and get some help now. Before it is too late. Leave it too long and it will only become worse. I ignored any kind of help for a number of years. Mainly because I had no idea what was happening to me. I was trying to figure it all out. I did finally go get myself some help. Learned all about what was happening to me. So I had an understanding. This did help. Learned ways to deal with what I was suffering from. They would all serve me well in time.

As for your mother? It is hard for others to understand fully. Heck I was called lazy so many times. This whole ' snap out of it ' thing. Like we could just click our fingers and make it all stop and we would be fine. If only it was that easy. But I would suggest looking for things to do. So you are not just sitting around all day, when at home, doing nothing at all. Journal as well. Write your thoughts out. Always good to look back further down the line. If there is anybody in school that you really trust to talk to, talk to them. Most schools do have such people these days.

Nothing wrong with a good cry every now and again either. Can do us all the world of good.

 

[nobody]

wow i'm so sorry you had to go through all this ...

thanks for the advice! I really appreciate it!

Don't get me wrong ... but I'm kind of glad I'm not the only one who feels like everything is moving fast ..
I actually decided to go for a walk with one of my closest friends tomorrow ...
I haven't seen her in a while ...
I want to talk to her about it, but I don't know how ... I think she's one of the people who would understand ...

the diary is a good idea ... i will try it ...

thanks ... i know that crying is not a bad thing, i just don't want to bother anyone with it ... so i excuse myself from the situation when i feel like i'm going to cry ...

thank you again...

 

[Cuchculan]

With me that was over 30 years ago now. I have learned a lot since then. Just would hate for you to stay in your house like I stayed in mine. I am happy to hear you are meeting a friend tomorrow. Just tell her exactly how you feel. That your mother doesn't understand it all. That you need to tell somebody and as she is your best friend and you trust her, it is her you are telling. You are also letting her know why you are telling her. That might even make her feel good. To hear you say that you trust her as your best friend. If there anywhere local and safe that nobody ever goes near, I would go there and just scream. Scream at the top of your voice. Let everything inside out. That will make you feel great. Mind you, if anybody is there and sees you. Just wave.

 

[nobody]

okayy i am going to try to tell her that way... thank you... i really think that she understands it... because we are very similar, personality wise...

that scream-thing is actually such a good idea! sometimes i just feel like screaming my lungs out...so i am definitely going to try that!

thank you!

 

[Cuchculan]

And like magic the spammer is gone.

 

[nobody]

okayy i won't thank you!