Basically I've ruined my life. I used to blame my parents, though now I see that there is no one to blame but myself. I allowed the depression and anxiety to get out of control, and now they have taken everything out of me and also taken everything away from me. Medications just made it worse, therapy made it worse, and I no longer have what it takes to fight this on my own. I can't kill myself, I've tried several times to slice my wrist open though I just can't do it. I hate this, I absolutely hate this. I feel completely alone, yet my anxiety keeps me from talking to people. Even if manage to try I either can't say anything or I just ruin everything. I've trapped myself in a cage, and I don't have the key to open it. I already feel horrible, but then when I stop and think about how I actually let loneliness do this to me it just makes me feel really pathetic and feel like a complete failure. I don't know what to do anymore, I just want out of this.