I just had a flashback! Woo a private movie showing just for little ol' me. Better than going to the movies any day! Or at least wouldn't that be a great way to look at it? But it isn't better than going to the movies at all. It takes over, you think that it is happening right there and then. At that moment in time, all logic goes out of the window. Then the adrenalin starts and I can't breathe. I start to blubber uncontrollably. My two doggies go to another room to get away from me. (sorry dogs) They think they may have done something wrong. I can't stop crying and can't get my breath but logic starts to take over. I will be okay, but I need to let my dogs know that. 'C'mon dogs' I tell them. 'Group hug!' I sat on the bed and they both jumped up to me. Licking my face and giving me love. I hope they hadn't done any self washing earlier as they licked right in my mouth! I could n't close my mouth either because I was blubbering like a baby I've just taken a valium and am going now to make a chamomile tea. Sure wish I had some smokey Joe right now, still a normal rolly will have to do and a cup of tea. Hopefully, the valium will kick in shortly. I'm okay, a bit shaky and nauseous but calming down a bit. I have a visit this morning around 11 from the crisis team to check up on me. I'm grateful for this forum and the support I am getting from all of you, and the support from the crisis team and the counsellors. And not forgetting that special support and group hug with my Loopy and Carl, thanks kiddo's, I must get them a special treat, they deserve it!