So I'll start this off by saying I f*cking HATE bullying. I'm not a violent or angry person at all but I wish really terrible things upon bullies. This is kind of a long-winded rant so I apologize. Dave and I were in the store tonight and we were holding hands, like we always do. These two teenagers walked by and kept turning around to look at us and laughing, and saying "Bro, bro, check out these fags!!" and stuff like that. They called Dave a "tranny" and said his makeup made him look like a "cheap hooker." Then one of them took out his phone and started taking a video of us. I'm not confrontational at all and I have basically no self-confidence so I just started crying. That made them laugh and make fun of us more. Dave is a lot more confident than I am and has more attitude and a shorter fuse than I do, so he marched right up to them and started flipping out on them. They recorded the whole thing and laughed and called him more names. Dave said "If I ever see you two again I'm gonna punch you so hard you'll be spitting out teeth for a month, and I'm gonna shove your phones so far up your asses, shards of glass will be coming out your noses!!" I think he really scared them, but they ran away laughing. This isn't the first time something like this has happened to us in public. People can be extremely mean to gay men and they don't seem to feel any empathy toward us. When we got back in the car and left the store, Dave was like "I f*cking hate America, everyone is a Trump supporter or a gun-toting Conservative." I do agree with him, but I pointed out that there are countries where it's not even legal for us to be married, and he said "It won't be legal here for much longer either." Sadly, I think that's probably true too. This country is going backwards as far as LGBTQ+ rights are concerned. Trump even removed the anti-discrimination laws for gay and transgender people, and transgender people are no longer legally allowed to use the bathroom of their choice. If my boss was homophobic (which thankfully she isn't), she could fire me for being gay and it would be legal. :'( People always say to me and Dave that we "aren't that oppressed" because we're cisgender white men, but gay people face a lot of oppression too. I deleted all of my social media accounts because the cyberbullying was too much for me. Dave still has social media, and some of the comments I see on his Instagram are really disturbing. He gets a lot of fat-shaming comments, and a lot of homophobic and sexually inappropriate comments. He has good comebacks to them and he acts like it doesn't bother him, but I know it does. The other day someone commented "What kind of faggot are you?" on one of his pictures, and Dave responded "A fabulous one! " His comebacks are great, and when he's online he acts like it doesn't get to him, but when we're alone he does cry about it. I think I've mentioned this before; Dave has a really big gap between his front teeth. I think it's adorable and he seems to not mind it, because I know Dave, and if something bothers him about his appearance he changes it. The other day he posted a pic on Instagram where he was smiling with his teeth showing, and some guy commented "Lol, I bet you don't give good blowjobs with that big space between your teeth!" to which Dave cleverly responded "Just ask my husband " I wish I could come up with good comebacks like Dave does. But when people make fun of me or are mean to me, it bothers me and I get crippling anxiety about it and can never let it go. I wish I didn't care what people thought of me, but it's really hard not to. That's the whole point of this post, I guess. I'm extremely bothered and upset by what people say to me and think of me. I wish I could get over it but I just can't. Dave and I are both still really upset about what happened to us in the store. That was extremely hurtful and embarrassing. The worst part is that there were other people around us who saw and heard the whole thing, and no one stood up for us or told the kids to stop bullying us. Some people even laughed. Sometimes I wish I was a normal, attractive, tall, more muscular, confident, straight guy. But I wouldn't trade Dave for anything in the world. I know he sometimes wishes he were someone else too. It's really hard to be who we are in today's society, and here in America it's getting worse. I'm really scared that someone is going to see me and Dave holding hands or kissing, and Dave wearing his makeup and dressing the way he does, and they're going to get mad and kill us. :'( I've had the crap beat out of me before and people have thrown rocks and stuff at me and threatened me and someone has pulled a knife on me. When I was in high school, a guy in my class found out I was gay and he and his friends all jumped me and beat the living sh*t out of me. And that's not even mentioning all the stuff my actual abusers did to me... I'm sorry this was so long and I'm sorry I'm so emotional right now. I just feel really triggered and upset. Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this and thank you for understanding. I wish all these bad things didn't keep happening to me or Dave. It breaks my heart.