Hi everyone. I'm just letting ya'll know that I'm away from my computer until Wednesday. My Mum is having a birthday party to celebrate her 70 years in this life. I'm anxious to be in a room full of people that I've not seen for half a century but I'm really looking forward to it too. I'm mostly scared I'll lose what I'm talking about halfway through a sentence and end up looking completely stupid. lol. My two dogs are at my friend's house now and already I miss them like crazy. God knows how I will fall asleep tonight without them beside me. I really miss them. The house seems so quiet. I love you all and I'll be back next week. Take care all of you and God bless. x
To start with I was really anxious. I knew very few people going and those ones I did know I've only met a few times. But it was lovely and I had a really great time. It enabled me to get closer to my family. Even though I was anxious as hell, everyone was really friendly and they soon put my mind to rest a bit.
The PTSD brain fog set in when someone was asking me about the short stories I had written. I wrote them but my mind went blank. I hate the fact that my mind goes blank when someone asks me a question because it makes me look stupid. It's not my fault though but I feel that people don't understand how much a traumatic life can affect someone.
I know this may not be very comfortable for you to talk about, but... What is your PTSD about? I just wanted to know, it's all. I hope it doesn't sound very rude... You're right, it isn't your fault, and I believe people, especially friends and family, should know more about mentally illnesses, and treat them as you would treat physical illnesses. Did you have fun apart from this little setback? I hope you did!
I went through some problems when I was trying to get back to the UK from Egypt. They were going through the Arab uprising over there and it was stressful getting out. I was run off the street like you see happening nowadays and left for dead. I had a very traumatic few years and it's the trauma that sets off PTSD. I also had PTSD when I was a child and get CPTSD as well. That is Complex PTSD. That is from childhood. So I get flashbacks that come from childhood and flashbacks from stressful times in later life. The flashes of memories come in a flash of a second and they can be gone, or they can carry on for a while. It's a bit like you've been hit with an emotional bullet. They make you breathless and throw you into a panic attack. It's got to the stage where I'm scared of any memory resurfacing - good or bad.
I’m sorry to know, Jane. Thanks for explaining it to me, since I don’t know much about PTSD, yet I’m very willing to help those who suffer from it. Hope you get better at dealing with it. And thank you for sharing that with me.
Hey, your welcome. Feel free to ask away. I just hope by sharing we can all draw strength from each other.
