Hi everyone, sorry I haven't posted or replied to anything and I'm sorry I haven't been around for the past few days. The last few days have been really tough. Dave's aunt, who he was really close with and who basically raised him and took care of him when his parents were being abusive (he has a similar story to me regarding his parents), died the other day. It was very sudden and he didn't get a chance to say goodbye. I'm really worried about Dave. He's not eating at all and he's been throwing up and he's starting to lose weight. He can't sleep and he's having a lot of panic attacks which is unusual because he's not a particularly anxious person. He's been unable to go to work and he can't get out of bed. He's also really angry and he's been taking it out on me. We're flying out to New York (where Dave is from) tomorrow (Sunday) for the funeral. I'm scared out of my mind of planes. I wish we could drive but I'm medically incapable of driving and Dave is not in a state to drive anywhere, never mind a five-hour road trip. It's a very short flight but even sitting here thinking about it my hands are all sweaty and I'm shaking. I have a phobia of air travel and air accidents, as I've mentioned before. Dave can give me all the statistics he wants about how air travel is safer than driving and how unlikely it is to get on a plane that crashes but it won't change my irrational fear. I know it's irrational too but I can't do anything about it. Dave has no patience for me right now and he doesn't want to deal with it so I can't talk to him about it. I tried to talk to him about it tonight and he was like "I don't care Lukas, you're getting on that damn plane. I don't want to hear it." Then he made it a lot worse by saying "If we die, then we're dead. Who cares." This isn't like him at all. He never says things like that. He's so mad at me and I don't know why. He didn't even kiss me goodnight or put his arms around me, and he's not even asleep, he's just ignoring me. Earlier today he yelled at me and he was like "YOU ARE SO SELFISH!!!" and he's been slamming doors a lot too. I don't know what to do I'm worried about Dave but I'm also extremely anxious and depressed. I want to be there for him and I want to help him but he's taking out all his emotions on me and I'm terrified of the plane flight.