I dont even know… i just feel weird

[roadtocalmness]

I have been fearing that i am on the verge of going crazy over the course of the last week. I had to leave the city i am studying in so i could go home and have a mental break. I feel better anxiety wise, but idk, i feel «odd» and «off». I feel like i have a form of intense meta-cognition in the sense that i am aware of every thought i have. It sort of feels like my thoughts have «two layers», if that makes sense. This awarness makes me feel distant and claustrophobic in a way. Do any of you relate? It really makes me feel like uneasy, and like im going crazy. I also get this weird feeling that human faces look different. Almost like humans are animals, but with human faces/facial features. I am aware that this is a totally weird thought and probably a result of overthinking but it makes me feel so… odd, and i cant help but to share it. I am sorry if i am spamming the forum too much, i am not trying to be a burden, i just want someone to talk to. I dont really have anyone in my life to talk to, so please, forgive me.

I have been fearing that i am on the verge of going crazy over the course of the last week. I had to leave the city i am studying in so i could go home and have a mental break. I feel better anxiety wise, but idk, i feel «odd» and «off». I feel like i have a form of intense meta-cognition in the sense that i am aware of every thought i have. It sort of feels like my thoughts have «two layers», if that makes sense. This awarness makes me feel distant and claustrophobic in a way. Do any of you relate? It really makes me feel like uneasy, and like im going crazy. I also get this weird feeling that human faces look different. Almost like humans are animals, but with human faces/facial features. I am aware that this is a totally weird thought and probably a result of overthinking but it makes me feel so… odd, and i cant help but to share it. Good thing is that sometimes i feel totally normal, which is also weird. I am sorry if i am spamming the forum too much, i am not trying to be a burden, i just want someone to talk to. I dont really have anyone in my life to talk to reagrding this, so please, forgive me.

I quoted my own message by mistake. I dont know how that happened.

 

[MATD]

All it is is anxiety. You are literally in a high anxiety state of mind, being hyper aware. I recognize what you describe because I’ve been there. And I can tell you for a fact that it’s just anxiety. It’s all an illusion. Fear can and will distort our sense of self and our surroundings. Practicing acceptance can and will help in getting back to a calm state of mind, but it takes time to accomplish. Right now I’m in another set back myself, but I’m still practicing and getting through it, recognizing that it’s only anxiety and I still have work to do. I know how difficult it all is, but we can recover from this if we apply acceptance. Right now for me, I’m quite well aware of what is going on with my own setback, and I’m ok with it, which is a good indication of being on the road to recovery. We got ourselves into this condition over a long period of time, with our negative and disordered thinking and we’ve got to give ourselves enough time to develop better ways of thinking. You aren’t alone in your struggle and there are others who do understand and can relate to your concerns. So keep on reaching out because we are here.