I’m tired.

[bigjetplane2]

Not physical, but mentally and emotionally.
I’m just tired,
I’m done. I don’t want to live like this anymore.
Everyday is a HA day for me.
And last night was bad with my baby.
She complains of eye pain, one sided. And I’m thinking the worst already.
Logically, her hair is always on that side when it’s down, so maybe it gets irritated daily.
No redness though.
But it just made me realize how bad my HA is. And i’m breaking down right now, sobbing.
I’m done guys.

 

[Anna70]

Hugs! There is nothing wrong with your daughter. Please calm down and take deep breaths.

 

[Jonathan123]

Not physical, but mentally and emotionally.
I’m just tired,
I’m done. I don’t want to live like this anymore.
Everyday is a HA day for me.
And last night was bad with my baby.
She complains of eye pain, one sided. And I’m thinking the worst already.
Logically, her hair is always on that side when it’s down, so maybe it gets irritated daily.
No redness though.
But it just made me realize how bad my HA is. And i’m breaking down right now, sobbing.
I’m done guys.

Oh no!!! You are far from done. We all have felt this way, and I had months of it when I had GAD.
You are probably depressed. This often follows long spells of anxiety when nothing seems to improve and you get exhausted. Dr.Weekes called it 'a tiredness beyond tiredness', and it sure feels that way. Have you seen your doctor? If not you should, and take your baby along too, although I am sure nothing is wrong. You need reassurance. And once told all is OK believe them. No second guessing.

 

[MATD]

It’s the fighting anxiety that wears us to the bone. I’ve been there so many times. Sick and tired of being sick and tired of the anxiety. You can recover, you have to stop fighting the anxiety. I’ve had the same crap all my life. I’m 63 years old, have GAD which is a nice combo of different manifestations, health, social, OCD, despairing depression. Debilitating, barely able to take care of myself. So I know exactly how you feel. This **** was ingrained so deep in me, but when I made up my mind I wasn’t going to suffer the rest of my life, I went forward, scratching and scraping out of the bottom of the muck filled barrel to the light at the top. It’s been hard, but it is just as hard to stay at the bottom sucking up the muck. The only difference is in what you want, to stay on the bottom or rise to the top. It takes the same amount of energy and effort either way you choose to go, but the reward is that for every positive thing you do to recover brings you one step closer to it. Staying on the bottom has no reward waiting, only more muck.

 

[Cuchculan]

Anxiety has drained me more time than I care to remember. But here I still am. You have a nice child who would be lost without you. i am sure you would be just as lost without her. That alone is worth pushing even harder for. Once you see that you can do this, it can become easier to do. As a person you will also become stronger. We are all born fighters. When we have something worth fighting for we simply dig that little bit deeper and make it back to the top again.