I’ve been so okay that I’m convinced something is wrong. I post about this often and I appreciate the support. I’ve had HA since my father was diagnosed with cancer in 2013. I’ve been convinced that I have cancer too. I’m overwhelmed and I’ve been sick between a cold and the flu since November. I’m having some funky vision issues too. Like after images on the screen and blurry vision from time to time. I’m overwhelmed. I’ve seen eye doctors, my regular doctors and then some. They all say it’s fine, but I feel like they don’t take me serious because of my HA. I want to feel normal. I’m so tired of feeling overwhelmed all the time . On the bright side, tomorrow I start a support group for grief (my dad passed away last January) and with small steps maybe I can even start exercising too. Sorry for rambling. Anyone having similar issues?
I’m convinced something’s wrong
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Thank you. It’s been a rough process to say the least
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I am so sorry about your father, I also lost my father last January, we were very close, I know what you are going through. I've been to several doctors as well, since I though i was sick, but it turns up it was anxiety, and I am still dealing with it on a daily basis.
I think the support group will help you, and hope you get better very soon.
I think the support group will help you, and hope you get better very soon.
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I am trying to stay strong, I am taking care of my mother and sister, which sometimes can't be easy. I am not much of a crier, maybe that's my problem. I have very bad days, and when that happen I am trying to think of the great memories that I had with my father, all the fun times, travels, and it kind of makes me happy. I do miss him a lot, but I need to focus of the remaining of my family.
People say it will get better, and I sure hope so, as for now its a fight, day after day, my anxiety can go from "I feel great" to "Ok, I am dying now, I just know", sadly I am getting adjusted to that as the days go by, hopefully it will end one day and I can return to the old me.
I hope you too, I hope you get better soon.
People say it will get better, and I sure hope so, as for now its a fight, day after day, my anxiety can go from "I feel great" to "Ok, I am dying now, I just know", sadly I am getting adjusted to that as the days go by, hopefully it will end one day and I can return to the old me.
I hope you too, I hope you get better soon.
Sometimes I feel bad because I start to forget to feel sad. Idk I just it does get easier with time. But a lot of days I feel exactly like that. Like “oh ****, I haven’t panicked today...” or “oh ****, I felt an odd sensation in my head, this is it...” I’m just tired of feeling so exhausted and overwhelmed everyday. And it’s even harder to try to keep it together when you’re screaming on the inside. Thank you for responding to me. I appreciate it so much
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Reading your comments its like you read my mind, I feel exactly like that. And I know that time will heal eventually, that's why I am trying to keep it together, even though sometimes is very hard.Sometimes I feel bad because I start to forget to feel sad. Idk I just it does get easier with time. But a lot of days I feel exactly like that. Like “oh ****, I haven’t panicked today...” or “oh ****, I felt an odd sensation in my head, this is it...” I’m just tired of feeling so exhausted and overwhelmed everyday. And it’s even harder to try to keep it together when you’re screaming on the inside. Thank you for responding to me. I appreciate it so much
I am here for you, PM me or write here any time you want. And I really hope you feel better soon.
My Dad just passed away last January as well from lung cancer. I worry about having cancer constantly. I think going to a support group is a good idea. I have an appointment for a mammogram on Thursday and I am just about to lose my mind with worry. You have seen doctors about your vision issues and you were cleared so I wouldn't worry.
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Thank you very much
!I hope your mammogram comes out clear! Try to think as positive as possible, although I know that’s much easier said than done. Sometimes my doctor makes me feel stupid when I talk to her about my concerns. So part of me doesn’t even want to try to insist anymore
I’m so sorry for your loss. My father passed away from lung cancer too. It was one of the worst tragedies of my life.
I’m sorry for your loss. There is no pain like watching a parent wither away. It’s been a year for me and I still can’t fathom the fact that I’ll never see my dad again. I’ve tried very hard to separate his illnesses from my own HA, and it just doesn’t work. How are you coping?
Sorry for your loss as well. I also lost my mother to cancer in 2017. So it's a lot. I selfishly focused on the fact that my ride or die people were no longer here to get me through life. They both were so helpful with my anxiety. Now, I just focus on my teenagers and being present for them. When I spiral, get sad about my parents, or focus on my anxiety, I just think about my kids and being whole for them. And that if anything were wrong with me, I'd fight to stay around for them. Every day is a struggle. My meditation coach is helpful. She talks me through my neuroses but i have setbacks!
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The way you describe your vision issues almost are identical with mine. And I am in the same boat, I feel like my Dr isn’t taking me seriously also