Hello,
I AM SO TIRED OF MY BRAIN!!! So it's been two years that i'm scared to death from hiv and that no one will love me once im diagnosed with it!!! i had 4 or 5 tests done this year which all came back negative. Three days ago i went to the doctor because i had some burnings and needed a treatment. I dont know if he put plastic on his ultrasound probe or not, i dont even remember because he didnt even ask me anything and i was shocked and couldnt say anything. From that day on i think i have contracted HIV. I live in France and called my aunt which is a nurse and she told me that every doctor uses plastic on their probe and laughed so much, i did even call a doctor that works next to him and he told me that he is an experienced and doctor and everything is clean in his office. But i just dont seem to be able to put my brain at rest and it has been two years that this **** wont live me alone and im really tired of it! I read forums saying even if it wasnt clean the person before you must have had hiv and hiv dies quickly outside the body but nothing can make me calm! I dont know what to do ! Any idea on how to calm my mind? ... I dont feel like being able to wait 6 weeks stressing this much. It's becoming so difficult... Any advice on how to calm my brain? I just wish this virus dindnt existe at all it's ruining my life
I AM SO TIRED OF MY BRAIN!!! So it's been two years that i'm scared to death from hiv and that no one will love me once im diagnosed with it!!! i had 4 or 5 tests done this year which all came back negative. Three days ago i went to the doctor because i had some burnings and needed a treatment. I dont know if he put plastic on his ultrasound probe or not, i dont even remember because he didnt even ask me anything and i was shocked and couldnt say anything. From that day on i think i have contracted HIV. I live in France and called my aunt which is a nurse and she told me that every doctor uses plastic on their probe and laughed so much, i did even call a doctor that works next to him and he told me that he is an experienced and doctor and everything is clean in his office. But i just dont seem to be able to put my brain at rest and it has been two years that this **** wont live me alone and im really tired of it! I read forums saying even if it wasnt clean the person before you must have had hiv and hiv dies quickly outside the body but nothing can make me calm! I dont know what to do ! Any idea on how to calm my mind? ... I dont feel like being able to wait 6 weeks stressing this much. It's becoming so difficult... Any advice on how to calm my brain? I just wish this virus dindnt existe at all it's ruining my life