Really don’t know where to start. I can only say that I have never felt so lost or confused about who I am or what my purpose is. I am trying to figure out why it is that I can’t get a grip on my own existence. I’m at a loss, and have felt this way for so long. I have been trying to find the light, yet I stay in a rabbit hole more often than not. I wasn’t sure of where I can turn to and ran across his site. I hate social media, so I wasn’t sure where to turn. I am in a constant state of anxiety, panic, and depression. I have not gone to anyone because I have no health insurance, but more importantly, I am terrified of turning to pills for comfort. I drink to feel like I can cope (but it feels like a crutch, and something I’m losing control over) and try to manage my life as normal as possible without having to turn to something else. I feel lost. Hope someone out there hears me.