Hello, I am at my wits end here and need some help...
I have been struggling with what my MD tells me is Anxiety for 8 months now, it all started with 4 visits to the hospital with symptoms that range from increased heart rate, feeling quite unwell, tightness in my chest (etc). After those 4 visits I was assured it was not heart related, so I went to my MD who told me that Exercise was the best way to help. I joined a gym, went for 3 months, none of that seems to have helped and I was still suffering from the symptoms. He now wants me to go on a SSRI, which I do not feel comfortable taking. This is now affecting my wife/family, I have nights where I do not sleep at all and am a complete and utter bear when I am around them. Last night was just one of these nights, I was unable to sleep, feeling nervousness all over, noticed my heart beating louder, not necessarily faster. It was around 3:30 am before I finally did manage to fall asleep, and then up at 8am because for some reason I am unable to sleep in. It is not ever night I have issues, but the majority of them it is maybe midnight before I fall asleep. It is very very rare that I actually get a full 7-8 hours per night.
This has made me emotionally, physically and mentally exhausted, I do not know what to do anymore. I can barely function on the lack of sleep I am getting, and the days after my nightly episodes, I feel like I got run over by a truck and do not want to do anything. This does not really help because I have kids and a wife that it is affecting now. I cannot help out with my duties because of what I am going through. Anything negative that happens on these days after puts me into instant crying, just walking into my sons room this morning and I was a mess.
The difficult part is that I cannot for the life of me figure out what is even causing these attacks, as it is not daily, it is quite infrequent, and nothing seems to line up. I am starting to think that maybe it is not Anxiety after all, however I do not know anymore. I have tried everything that the MD has suggested with the exception of the medication.
I am at a loss for words here, just wanted to get my words out on a place where others understand what I am going through.
Thanks,
Rusty
I have been struggling with what my MD tells me is Anxiety for 8 months now, it all started with 4 visits to the hospital with symptoms that range from increased heart rate, feeling quite unwell, tightness in my chest (etc). After those 4 visits I was assured it was not heart related, so I went to my MD who told me that Exercise was the best way to help. I joined a gym, went for 3 months, none of that seems to have helped and I was still suffering from the symptoms. He now wants me to go on a SSRI, which I do not feel comfortable taking. This is now affecting my wife/family, I have nights where I do not sleep at all and am a complete and utter bear when I am around them. Last night was just one of these nights, I was unable to sleep, feeling nervousness all over, noticed my heart beating louder, not necessarily faster. It was around 3:30 am before I finally did manage to fall asleep, and then up at 8am because for some reason I am unable to sleep in. It is not ever night I have issues, but the majority of them it is maybe midnight before I fall asleep. It is very very rare that I actually get a full 7-8 hours per night.
This has made me emotionally, physically and mentally exhausted, I do not know what to do anymore. I can barely function on the lack of sleep I am getting, and the days after my nightly episodes, I feel like I got run over by a truck and do not want to do anything. This does not really help because I have kids and a wife that it is affecting now. I cannot help out with my duties because of what I am going through. Anything negative that happens on these days after puts me into instant crying, just walking into my sons room this morning and I was a mess.
The difficult part is that I cannot for the life of me figure out what is even causing these attacks, as it is not daily, it is quite infrequent, and nothing seems to line up. I am starting to think that maybe it is not Anxiety after all, however I do not know anymore. I have tried everything that the MD has suggested with the exception of the medication.
I am at a loss for words here, just wanted to get my words out on a place where others understand what I am going through.
Thanks,
Rusty