Hi, I've been feeling anxious and depressed again recently. So I thought I'd try and find somewhere where I can write and discuss with others, struggling with same issues.
I only found out about 2 or 3 years ago, the feelings that I had suppressed all my life were anxiety.
The past 5 years for me have been very difficult. A long term relationship break down. A new short lived (10 months) relationship with a narcissist, that has taken me 3 years to get over. I had a bout of sickness from work, then covid happened and I couldn't go back because no one would assess a suitable job for me. I was off nearly 6 months, stressing and worrying that my employment would be terminated. I survived! Then I got issues with my father getting dementia. He kept pestering me and I know he couldn't help it but he took over my whole life. I stopped doing my hobbies because he would just keep turning up. I was absolutely drained with caring for him and working long shifts. Christmas eve 2020 I started taking the anti depressants. I'd refused them the previous summer, but I now couldn't cope. The occ health team at work wanted me to have counselling, which I did for 21 weeks. Last March I stopped taking the meds and I felt good, I had a nice clear mind. I was now able to stand up to my father a bit better and say NO. I was able to make some decisions to help him and in turn help me. So now I have a couple of people doing a few days for me to help him. I stopped his visits and now I go to him only. So life had become a lot better.
So moving more up to date. I've started to feel really crap again. I don't want to see anyone. I don't want to do anything. I don't get out of bed til late. Just want to hide.
I've got the anxiety feeling in my chest that I cant seem to get rid of. But I don't really know why this has all started again when I seem to have made good progress on all the things that were causing my issues.
I thought writing it out might help me and in turn someone reading might have some tips too.
I only found out about 2 or 3 years ago, the feelings that I had suppressed all my life were anxiety.
The past 5 years for me have been very difficult. A long term relationship break down. A new short lived (10 months) relationship with a narcissist, that has taken me 3 years to get over. I had a bout of sickness from work, then covid happened and I couldn't go back because no one would assess a suitable job for me. I was off nearly 6 months, stressing and worrying that my employment would be terminated. I survived! Then I got issues with my father getting dementia. He kept pestering me and I know he couldn't help it but he took over my whole life. I stopped doing my hobbies because he would just keep turning up. I was absolutely drained with caring for him and working long shifts. Christmas eve 2020 I started taking the anti depressants. I'd refused them the previous summer, but I now couldn't cope. The occ health team at work wanted me to have counselling, which I did for 21 weeks. Last March I stopped taking the meds and I felt good, I had a nice clear mind. I was now able to stand up to my father a bit better and say NO. I was able to make some decisions to help him and in turn help me. So now I have a couple of people doing a few days for me to help him. I stopped his visits and now I go to him only. So life had become a lot better.
So moving more up to date. I've started to feel really crap again. I don't want to see anyone. I don't want to do anything. I don't get out of bed til late. Just want to hide.
I've got the anxiety feeling in my chest that I cant seem to get rid of. But I don't really know why this has all started again when I seem to have made good progress on all the things that were causing my issues.
I thought writing it out might help me and in turn someone reading might have some tips too.
