bigjetplane6
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Just here venting.
I am broken, anxious, overwhelmed, upset, stressed out. Currently going through a HA episode - Googled already and I have 2 self diagnoses and want to cry. I’ll be posting about it soon (trying to stay strong but I know i’ll be breaking soon)
I’m tired of this. I envy those who don’t have HA.
I wish I could be like them. I don’t wish anybody to walk in my shoes but those who don’t understand HA and say “Just snap out of it”, I wish we could trade shoes for a split second just so you can feel and see how I feel.
I envy those who have HA and have “ghost symptoms” such as high blood pressure, headaches, etc that are triggered by HA.
I hate being a HA sufferer with physical symptoms such as a new lump on your body, a skin change, etc. Physical symptoms that you actually can see and see a change.
I’m not saying it’s harder, I’m just saying... I guess maybe it is harder in a way. Don’t get mad at me friends. I’m just venting away.....
Sometimes I feel like I can’t take this anymore. I’m tired. Mentally. This is tough.
And what breaks me more is that my family can’t get me 100% because I’m always on edge and anxious and worried and going to the bathroom to check out the body part that has me anxious and feeling restless.
I’m tired, God. I don’t understand and probably won’t ever understand why You let us suffer like this.
Now the tears are rolling down my face. And i thought i had no tears left...
I am broken, anxious, overwhelmed, upset, stressed out. Currently going through a HA episode - Googled already and I have 2 self diagnoses and want to cry. I’ll be posting about it soon (trying to stay strong but I know i’ll be breaking soon)
I’m tired of this. I envy those who don’t have HA.
I wish I could be like them. I don’t wish anybody to walk in my shoes but those who don’t understand HA and say “Just snap out of it”, I wish we could trade shoes for a split second just so you can feel and see how I feel.
I envy those who have HA and have “ghost symptoms” such as high blood pressure, headaches, etc that are triggered by HA.
I hate being a HA sufferer with physical symptoms such as a new lump on your body, a skin change, etc. Physical symptoms that you actually can see and see a change.
I’m not saying it’s harder, I’m just saying... I guess maybe it is harder in a way. Don’t get mad at me friends. I’m just venting away.....
Sometimes I feel like I can’t take this anymore. I’m tired. Mentally. This is tough.
And what breaks me more is that my family can’t get me 100% because I’m always on edge and anxious and worried and going to the bathroom to check out the body part that has me anxious and feeling restless.
I’m tired, God. I don’t understand and probably won’t ever understand why You let us suffer like this.
Now the tears are rolling down my face. And i thought i had no tears left...