Heightened anxiety tonight :(

[bin_tenn]

I suspect it's due to the ordeal with my prescription refill, which I posted about previously. That is resolved now, but I'm thinking it got to me and I'm just feeling the effects this evening. Not a big deal, but you all know how unpleasant the feeling is, whether you know the root cause or not.

I'm not anxious about my health specifically, but at the same time it makes me feel like I'm ill in some way. Again, just not a pleasant feeling. I just got in bed and I believe my heart rate has finally slowed down. I never checked what the BPM was, I could just feel that it was elevated, relative to my norm. Maybe I was just overdue for bed?

I do feel better now that I'm laying down. I was feeling shaky (hands were slightly visibly shaking) and just generally on edge. I should really get some sleep but I feel like it's going to take a bit to get there - I'm still going to try though. I also found out some potentially huge news today that is really cool but makes me anxious. I'll post about that in the General Chat forum though.

Thanks for reading. Take care, and I always welcome the responses here. No need for reassurance, I just wanted to share the state I'm in and maybe start some chit chat.

 

[Cuchculan]

We can all get that way at times. Important thing to keep in mind, you have been here before and it passed. No doubt it will pass this time too. Just horrible when it is happening. But it never really causes us any harm at all. Apart from those bad feelings it brings with it. It can also drain us. But we always bounce back. We always just keep on going. That is who we are. I am sure you will be the exact same.

 

[bin_tenn]

We can all get that way at times. Important thing to keep in mind, you have been here before and it passed. No doubt it will pass this time too. Just horrible when it is happening. But it never really causes us any harm at all. Apart from those bad feelings it brings with it. It can also drain us. But we always bounce back. We always just keep on going. That is who we are. I am sure you will be the exact same.

Most definitely! I still try to not complain during these times, because even these episodes are nothing compared to what I used to go through. I'm always grateful for the progress I've made compared to a few years ago.

But yeah, it won't hurt us in any way, despite sometimes feeling like it may. Once I calm down (like I am now, mostly) it's easier to see that it's harmless, but I do try to remind myself of that in the moment.

 

[bigjetplane2]

That’s the worst isn’t it?
Bin, we’re right here with you.

 

[MATD]

It was spring and I went off my meds on my own(big mistake) that I felt really anxious. It’s been a bit strange for me in a way, not having to struggle thru those times. Heck, compared to when I got aggressive with recovery about five years ago, what I experience now is a piece of cake. It’s been quite an enlightening journey. I feel the anguish of others who are still going thru the roughness. I was debilitated with anxiety and depression, to the point of delusional thinking, and God knows what else. Believe me, I was on the bottom of the barrel sucking all the muck, total despair. After I started the acceptance method several months ago, things have steadily improved at a different pace than before starting the method. I guess I just want to impress on everyone that it’s working for me and it can for you too. I hate seeing folks stuck when I have found a way out. It requires nothing more than simply facing, accepting and not fighting with the anxiety. Although it is simple, facing the anxiety and accepting it is the hardest to do, but even a person such as myself was able to do it. Even after a lifetime of negative, anxious thinking and behavior, I was able to effectively use the method. It works if you remain dedicated to recovery and are willing to stay with it. It’s not easy, but it’s no harder than staying where you are. Please accept my post as a way to reach out and try to help, to let you know you can get better.

 

[bin_tenn]

It was spring and I went off my meds on my own(big mistake) that I felt really anxious. It’s been a bit strange for me in a way, not having to struggle thru those times. Heck, compared to when I got aggressive with recovery about five years ago, what I experience now is a piece of cake. It’s been quite an enlightening journey. I feel the anguish of others who are still going thru the roughness. I was debilitated with anxiety and depression, to the point of delusional thinking, and God knows what else. Believe me, I was on the bottom of the barrel sucking all the muck, total despair. After I started the acceptance method several months ago, things have steadily improved at a different pace than before starting the method. I guess I just want to impress on everyone that it’s working for me and it can for you too. I hate seeing folks stuck when I have found a way out. It requires nothing more than simply facing, accepting and not fighting with the anxiety. Although it is simple, facing the anxiety and accepting it is the hardest to do, but even a person such as myself was able to do it. Even after a lifetime of negative, anxious thinking and behavior, I was able to effectively use the method. It works if you remain dedicated to recovery and are willing to stay with it. It’s not easy, but it’s no harder than staying where you are. Please accept my post as a way to reach out and try to help, to let you know you can get better.

I think I'm good. I no longer live in fear due to anxiety, it doesn't control me like it used to. Last night, after posting this, I closed my eyes and counted backward from 100, synced with breathing, and I fell asleep without issue. I post here only rarely when I have heightened anxiety, not every time like I used to. I also like to state that I'm not seeking reassurance, it's more of a journaling thing.

I don't even look back at my old posts. I share here primarily to share with others the thought processes and techniques I use to work through my anxiety. People definitely find it helpful, maybe even inspirational, and I thoroughly enjoy that aspect of it.

Acceptance is definitely a large reason I got to this point in my struggles with anxiety. It took me several years to grasp the concept, but after a handful of sessions with a solid therapist I finally figured it out.

And of course I appreciate your replies and sharing your own experiences. That also helps, and it's nice to know when someone else has also gotten a grip on this stuff.

 

[MATD]

I think I'm good. I no longer live in fear due to anxiety, it doesn't control me like it used to. Last night, after posting this, I closed my eyes and counted backward from 100, synced with breathing, and I fell asleep without issue. I post here only rarely when I have heightened anxiety, not every time like I used to. I also like to state that I'm not seeking reassurance, it's more of a journaling thing.

I don't even look back at my old posts. I share here primarily to share with others the thought processes and techniques I use to work through my anxiety. People definitely find it helpful, maybe even inspirational, and I thoroughly enjoy that aspect of it.

Acceptance is definitely a large reason I got to this point in my struggles with anxiety. It took me several years to grasp the concept, but after a handful of sessions with a solid therapist I finally figured it out.

And of course I appreciate your replies and sharing your own experiences. That also helps, and it's nice to know when someone else has also gotten a grip on this stuff.

Thanks. My response was to everyone who reads this thread. Like you, I just want folks to know there is hope and what I have found that actually made the biggest difference for me. I hope for others as well to get a grip on their anxiety and not live in anguish.

 

[kammie72]

Thank you both for sharing! Gives me hope that it’s possible to reach a better state with this anxiety.