having bad morning anxiety

[shay1988]

so every morning i have been waking up hot and sweaty! my hands are so hot and wet from sweat. my body aches and i feel so weird! then as the day goes on i start to feel little better. im still having bad globus sensation and tight throat it lasts all day. i kno its my anxiety and i am trying to keep my mind calm and not to overthink it. but when u wake up feeling like that its so hard to get up and go do what u need to. i didnt go to work today or take my dog to his vet appointment and i rescheduled it. all because my head and neck was hurting so bad! and my tight throat. i cant make myself get out and do what i need to! i feel like a failure! my dog needs his blood work! but i couldnt get up and out! i have such bad anxiety and symptoms but dont want to go to any appointments! i have bad attacks when i leave my home! i really want to overcome my agoriphobia!

 

[Seryn]

What are you eating or drinking? I no when I've suffered awful with throat anxiety my eating goes out the window. I tend to pick at little bits or chocolate, whatever I can stomach and too much coffee. Definitely makes my symptoms much worse though. Vicious cycle coz the last thing I want to do when nervous is eat, especially with throat symptoms. I also put books under the head of my bed so it's tilted. Apparently helps with GERD symptoms. I totally understand how other responsibilities seem too much right now. Like you said in your other post see if you can get a referral to ENT Dr which might make you feel more productive and make the other tasks more manageable. I totally understand not wanting to face them. I've got a dead arm this morning and the last thing on earth I want to do is sit at my desk and work and make it worse. I've got other life admin things to do and I just want to bury my head in the sand and hide in bed.

 

[Chrissyjo]

really want to overcome my agoriphobia

I get this too and bad anxiety. I used to hate myself and felt useless. Then I just changed my mindset and told myself I’m just having a bad day. I still get anxiety but when I know it’s a bad day I just accept and stay home where I feel safe. It’s ok to have days like this. I just tell myself I’ll feel better again soon and it’s ok to just stay home.

 

[Sweet T]

Hope you are better today Shay.

 

[shay1988]

Hello. No I'm much worse today. My throat just won't ease up and I don't want to go to hospital. Honestly I don't have time. I have so much to do already. But I'm really struggling right now. It's constant and just won't stop! Plus all the other symptoms I'm having don't help

 

[Jonathan123]

In spite of being told about 'struggling' you still continue to do so. Like 'Fighting' and 'Battling' these are words we should not use in anxiety. My heart goes out to you because I do know how you feel, but as I have said before, acceptance is still the answer.
Have you given medication another thought? I suggest you do becuse you need a break from all this suffering.

 

[Seryn]

Maybe go and either the hospital will find a cause and something to help or they'll see nothing and it might be what you need to lesson the symptoms. I no you sound super busy but you are important too!

 

[Sweet T]

Hello. No I'm much worse today. My throat just won't ease up and I don't want to go to hospital. Honestly I don't have time. I have so much to do already. But I'm really struggling right now. It's constant and just won't stop! Plus all the other symptoms I'm having don't help

I completely understand. Are you taking ibuprofen and doing salt water gargles? It will help but it takes time.

I’m gargling, taking ibuprofen, eating popsicles and soft food plus taking antibiotics. Plus lots of water. It will take time but keep at it. Don’t give up. You must put yourself first in order to help others. Good luck!

 

[shay1988]

Hello, @Jonathan123 yes I do need a break! I fear if something doesn't change soon I'll have a break down. But I have so many symptoms that I can't forget about it for long before feeling somthing else. It really is overwhelming me. I have thought about meds but my DR office is like nothing but Drs in training and I never see the same one. And they won't listen to me. I have cried and poored my heart out to them and they don't care. I really need some kind of help. Even a psychiatrist. Someone to talk to.

 

[Seryn]

Have you ever tried any form of SSRI's for anxiety? It's all UK doctors will prescribe here. You can't get any of the addictive stuff here legally. They usually prescribe them without barely listening here. The majority of my friends are on them and swear by them. I need to get past the first few weeks where it can heighten your anxiety. Other than that you go on a waiting list for talking therapy. I've been on the list since July. Actually had an email the other day to ask if I still wanted to be on the list. It will probably be another 6 months wait. Is it any quicker in the states? I had CBT counselling for my first awful bout of anxiety and it kept it at bay manageably for 4 years.

 

[Jonathan123]

Hello, @Jonathan123 yes I do need a break! I fear if something doesn't change soon I'll have a break down. But I have so many symptoms that I can't forget about it for long before feeling somthing else. It really is overwhelming me. I have thought about meds but my DR office is like nothing but Drs in training and I never see the same one. And they won't listen to me. I have cried and poored my heart out to them and they don't care. I really need some kind of help. Even a psychiatrist. Someone to talk to.

It's not much use going to the doctors then refusing to take medication. SSRI's can help a lot with anxiety. They are not a cure, but do relieve symptoms. Can you get or afford counselling? Talking about it all and being honest can also help. It is difficult to find anyone who understands, that's why it is so good to come on here.
Doctors have little training in anxiety. Their training is nearly always on physical problems not mental ones. I asked my doctor if she had had any training in anxiety and her answer was 'very little'. I am so lucky because she told me that she almost had a breakdown while at med school. So she knew how I felt. That was years ago and not much has changed.
'Overwhelming'. Yes, it can seem so, although we are never totally overwhelmed by 'IT'
There is always that chink of light in the knowledge we can get better.
You can Shay, even though you may not think so now. Hope does spring eternal if we allow it.

 

[shay1988]

@Jonathan123 thank you
I Kno I can over come this. I just need a little break in my symptoms so I can focus on getting my mind right. I wish my Drs would understand. I have one Dr who does but she's about herbal healing and I'm not. I don't have allot of money to buy all these herbs. I can't take ssris they really make me worse for some reason. And allot of antidepressants I can't take. I just feel so lost.

 

[Jonathan123]

@Jonathan123 thank you
I Kno I can over come this. I just need a little break in my symptoms so I can focus on getting my mind right. I wish my Drs would understand. I have one Dr who does but she's about herbal healing and I'm not. I don't have allot of money to buy all these herbs. I can't take ssris they really make me worse for some reason. And allot of antidepressants I can't take. I just feel so lost.

Anti depressants often take up to six weeks to click in, and initially they can meke you feel worse. There are a variety of them on the market and if one does not work for you another may. I know the 'lost' feeling well. Even in a crowd when we have anxiaty we can feel so lonely. Everyone around is enjoying themselves, or so it seems, and we are in the rabbit hole.
But appearances are deceptive. Everyone has some sort of hangup, but they don't show it as much as an anxiety sufferer. It's because in anxiety everything is exaggerated.
Give up trying to 'overcome' it. That implies some sort of resistance and that is the last thing you want. Acceptance is about 'overseeing' without adding fear to fear.
When you feel bad try and not add more fear by complaining about how you feel.
Self pity is out in anxiety. It just reinforces the symptoms and makes them real. It's all one big con Shay. Illusion after illusion, but so real.

 

[Sweet T]

@Jonathan123 thank you
I Kno I can over come this. I just need a little break in my symptoms so I can focus on getting my mind right. I wish my Drs would understand. I have one Dr who does but she's about herbal healing and I'm not. I don't have allot of money to buy all these herbs. I can't take ssris they really make me worse for some reason. And allot of antidepressants I can't take. I just feel so lost.

I hear you Shay. I’m having some issues too but I still wrote in my gratitude journal, took my meds, and walked in the house for a bit. Small steps but they are steps in the right direction. Just do 1 thing for yourself today. Make some soup. That will help your throat. Try to redirect your attention and gratitude to the fact that you have a warm bed, food, people that care.

I’m writing this as much to myself as you Shay. One step at a time friend.

 

[Anna70]

My counselor therapist told me to do a gratitude journal starting this week. I have to write down three things I am thankful for each night. I am on Day 3. One step at a time is right! <3

 

[Phillies Phan]

Anti depressants often take up to six weeks to click in, and initially they can meke you feel worse. There are a variety of them on the market and if one does not work for you another may. I know the 'lost' feeling well. Even in a crowd when we have anxiaty we can feel so lonely. Everyone around is enjoying themselves, or so it seems, and we are in the rabbit hole.
But appearances are deceptive. Everyone has some sort of hangup, but they don't show it as much as an anxiety sufferer. It's because in anxiety everything is exaggerated.
Give up trying to 'overcome' it. That implies some sort of resistance and that is the last thing you want. Acceptance is about 'overseeing' without adding fear to fear.
When you feel bad try and not add more fear by complaining about how you feel.
Self pity is out in anxiety. It just reinforces the symptoms and makes them real. It's all one big con Shay. Illusion after illusion, but so real.

I may have written this before, and if so, apologies.

There is a reporter by the name of Frank Bruni. One day last year he woke up and one of his eyes was blurry, like a smudge was there. After getting up, putting in eye drops, etc he still had problem seeing in that eye and later that day, with no improvement he went to a medical facility. What he thought would be a quick trip turned into a nightmare of testing. They diagnosed him with some rare I believe genetic, eye disease. He was told there is no cure, and he will be losing total sight in that 1 eye. There is a 50-50% chance over the next 10 years he will also have this happen to his other eye.

After what he called a lengthy pity party, thinking about the future and how it will affect his life and career, he ultimately said something that is so very true. He says literally everyone is dealing with something. He said imagine if every person you see in the course of a day had to wear a sign around their neck stating what they’re dealing with in their life.

There would be the woman recovering from early cancer surgery who can’t stop thinking about the 1-2% chance the doctors said the cancer would return. Then the man who’s wife is being stalked by a crazy ex, and the man has no idea how far he will go to try to get her back; and the police are of no help; or the teenage girl who is smiling and looking like she’s living a normal happy life, but every night her mothers new boyfriend comes into her bedroom.

And on and on and on. We are not alone. We all have our troubles, whether we’re good at hiding them or not. Just think about the signs around the neck thoughts of Bruni when you feel like the whole world has it together, except you.

 

[Gooze17]

Mornings are the worst for me. I've read about it and it's the burst of cortisol. Takes me about an hour to level out. Much easier to navigate once I understood why it was happening