I went in feeling pretty good, since these are faster than MRIs and less intimidating. When I got the contrast, I got that "peed yourself" feeling but it was super intense, moreso than usual, and was localized to the bladder area. And after the scan the tech said "good luck with everything, hon" which made me wonder what the hell she saw.
I hate that I'm so fragile that every little thing sends me into a panic. I mean, I'm also pissed because I'd gotten my anxiety beaten back over the last few days, but I guess it was pretty unstable since this was all it took to bring it back. It triggered me because the ONLY other time anyone I know has gotten wished "good luck" by a tech after a test result was when a mass was found on my mother's ovary that everyone was assuming was cancer. Luckily it wasn't, but that was the start of the worst time of my life. Unfortunately, knowing where it comes from isn't helping me be more rational.
I'm also just anxious about what was seen. My biggest fear is an incidental ovarian finding (...guess why) but I don't especially want bladder or kidney cancer either.
I hate that I'm so fragile that every little thing sends me into a panic. I mean, I'm also pissed because I'd gotten my anxiety beaten back over the last few days, but I guess it was pretty unstable since this was all it took to bring it back. It triggered me because the ONLY other time anyone I know has gotten wished "good luck" by a tech after a test result was when a mass was found on my mother's ovary that everyone was assuming was cancer. Luckily it wasn't, but that was the start of the worst time of my life. Unfortunately, knowing where it comes from isn't helping me be more rational.
I'm also just anxious about what was seen. My biggest fear is an incidental ovarian finding (...guess why) but I don't especially want bladder or kidney cancer either.