epi haven't been on in a while because my mental health, at least the anxiety side of things, has been a lot better, but it's been starting to get worse again. at least from what i read on the forum, it seems like what most people are worried about are schoolwork, work, life, possible catastrophies and stuff that's caused by anxiety, but my anxiety is so that it convinces me to do a million of things at once in case there are monsters or other types of scary things. i really don't know anyone else who's anxiety is similar to mine and in such a severe way, but it impairs my ability to function.
i don't know if it's because it's my first time taking a shower 1. without my mom home 2. in my own bathroom(i showered in the lockeroom at swimming) but i started to get really bad anxiety about monsters and clowns and murderers again. and it's multiple layers of things. like someone's outside of my shower curtain, my bathroom door, so i should unlock the door so i feel better, but if i unlock it, then something could get in easier, but if i stop my shower something could get me outside of my shower, but if i stay in my shower, somethings gonna kill me, the water pipe is gonna start spouting blood, so on and so forth. i love my brain
i hate being like this because no matter how much i tell myself it's fake, monsters don't exist, etc, i feel like i understand that but i can't internalize it, so i still get really bad nervousness from it.
are there any foolproof methods to help my anxiety? and i don't mean the usual "tell yourself you'll get through it" type of thing because multiple counselors and therapists have all told me that and it barely helps. also, i'm thinking about starting therapy again soon.
at least it's hasn't been impacting my sleep as much. before, i would have to stay up for nearly the entire night to exhaust myself until i fell asleep, but recently high school has dragged me out to the point where i can relax anywhere that doesn't remind me of inverse of relations and functions, genetic mutations and rna, or the communist era of china.
last bit, i want to get tested for adhd because a therapist recommended it and said that it might be contributing to the whole awful thought process thing. but to get medicine and stuff for it, i need teacher's letters. how should i approach my teachers about this, especially since i've never talked to my teachers this trimester about mental health stuff. i'm thinking of either algebra 2, bio, or social science, because they're are my academic classes this trimester(i have creative writing and pe) but i'm not that close with any of those teachers.
thanks,
rue
i don't know if it's because it's my first time taking a shower 1. without my mom home 2. in my own bathroom(i showered in the lockeroom at swimming) but i started to get really bad anxiety about monsters and clowns and murderers again. and it's multiple layers of things. like someone's outside of my shower curtain, my bathroom door, so i should unlock the door so i feel better, but if i unlock it, then something could get in easier, but if i stop my shower something could get me outside of my shower, but if i stay in my shower, somethings gonna kill me, the water pipe is gonna start spouting blood, so on and so forth. i love my brain
i hate being like this because no matter how much i tell myself it's fake, monsters don't exist, etc, i feel like i understand that but i can't internalize it, so i still get really bad nervousness from it.
are there any foolproof methods to help my anxiety? and i don't mean the usual "tell yourself you'll get through it" type of thing because multiple counselors and therapists have all told me that and it barely helps. also, i'm thinking about starting therapy again soon.
at least it's hasn't been impacting my sleep as much. before, i would have to stay up for nearly the entire night to exhaust myself until i fell asleep, but recently high school has dragged me out to the point where i can relax anywhere that doesn't remind me of inverse of relations and functions, genetic mutations and rna, or the communist era of china.
last bit, i want to get tested for adhd because a therapist recommended it and said that it might be contributing to the whole awful thought process thing. but to get medicine and stuff for it, i need teacher's letters. how should i approach my teachers about this, especially since i've never talked to my teachers this trimester about mental health stuff. i'm thinking of either algebra 2, bio, or social science, because they're are my academic classes this trimester(i have creative writing and pe) but i'm not that close with any of those teachers.
thanks,
rue