Howlingvapor
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I’m still working on moving on. I’ve made it through the severe depression for the most part and I’ve started thinking more positively and reaching out. I’m still making progress and finding my way out of this dark place. However, I’m finding myself in a position in which there’s no one to talk to right now. I’ve messaged my friend, but I think he’s busy. I’m away from my family and all I have are myself and my thoughts. I keep hoping to get a match on tinder or something just so I have someone to talk to.
I’m bored really, don’t know where I’m at emotionally. I’m wrestling with the idea of staying single. My therapist mentioned that I’m probably not in a good place in life for a relationship, between school and work and everything else I’m dealing with. It’s kinda hard to not keep searching though. I’ve come to terms with the fact that being single isn’t that bad in fact it has a lot of opportunities for self discovery and improvement. I don’t need a relationship to be happy, but there’s just something about sharing your life with someone you love that I just can’t get enough of. Being loved by someone is just such an amazing feeling.
My anxiety has been a lot more intense since the depression started to fade. Now that I actually care about connecting with people I’m constantly thinking about what others think of me. I’m talking to people more which is good, but I keep stressing about saying the wrong thing or coming off as weird. Today’s been rough in that regard, just awkward situation after awkward situation with friends and strangers.
I feel alone and scared, but not depressed luckily, which is I guess a step in the right direction, but I don’t know. It was times like this that a relationship always came in handy. When everyone else in my life was gone, busy, or annoyed by me I always had her, but now I don’t and that’s ok, but it would be nice to have that again with someone that actually cares about me.
Romance was something I never had a knack for. I never really went on dates or flirted. I was never smooth or adventurous. I just always fell in love by chance. I don’t know how to function in the dating world. I’m awkward and too afraid to make the first move. I just don’t know exactly how I’m going to find someone or if something’s wrong with me.
Again it’s not that I need a relationship to be happy. It’s just nice to be in one and hard for me get into one. People say that there’s always plenty of fish in the sea, but I’m bad at fishing. I’m impatient and too cautious, and the only time I find a girl is by sheer chance. So its hard for me to feel confident when I tell myself I’ll find someone someday.
Does anyone else experience this feeling? Can I still find a happy relationship the way I am awkwardness and all or do I have to change?
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I’m bored really, don’t know where I’m at emotionally. I’m wrestling with the idea of staying single. My therapist mentioned that I’m probably not in a good place in life for a relationship, between school and work and everything else I’m dealing with. It’s kinda hard to not keep searching though. I’ve come to terms with the fact that being single isn’t that bad in fact it has a lot of opportunities for self discovery and improvement. I don’t need a relationship to be happy, but there’s just something about sharing your life with someone you love that I just can’t get enough of. Being loved by someone is just such an amazing feeling.
My anxiety has been a lot more intense since the depression started to fade. Now that I actually care about connecting with people I’m constantly thinking about what others think of me. I’m talking to people more which is good, but I keep stressing about saying the wrong thing or coming off as weird. Today’s been rough in that regard, just awkward situation after awkward situation with friends and strangers.
I feel alone and scared, but not depressed luckily, which is I guess a step in the right direction, but I don’t know. It was times like this that a relationship always came in handy. When everyone else in my life was gone, busy, or annoyed by me I always had her, but now I don’t and that’s ok, but it would be nice to have that again with someone that actually cares about me.
Romance was something I never had a knack for. I never really went on dates or flirted. I was never smooth or adventurous. I just always fell in love by chance. I don’t know how to function in the dating world. I’m awkward and too afraid to make the first move. I just don’t know exactly how I’m going to find someone or if something’s wrong with me.
Again it’s not that I need a relationship to be happy. It’s just nice to be in one and hard for me get into one. People say that there’s always plenty of fish in the sea, but I’m bad at fishing. I’m impatient and too cautious, and the only time I find a girl is by sheer chance. So its hard for me to feel confident when I tell myself I’ll find someone someday.
Does anyone else experience this feeling? Can I still find a happy relationship the way I am awkwardness and all or do I have to change?
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