where do i start my ocd with this breathing is causing me so much distressed. i was fine with this ocd but the thing is any smell of anything is startting to trigger this ocd which causing me to go in deppression.i dont have much joy now days. i have girlfriend we were planning to get married soon and moving to different state for better life but this ocd and trigger has caused me so much stress.i cant handle right now.lots of sucidal thoughts comes in my mind but im afraid of that also. from the morning im feeling sad i constantly think the consequences of this ocd in our relation.im very sad for my girfriend also that i am becoming different person now she is very excited about marriage she do know about my condition but i still feel she doesnt understand propelry this thing has created so much stress right now i think i cant handle. im afraid to do sucide also i do have therapist but in my country i dont think so they have enough knowledge about this type of ocd this is silently killing me. i dont know what to do.