Feeling anxious about going into a PHP program

[AnxiousinSJ]

Hi I am new here and wanted to reach out. I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder, depression, and panic attacks. This has been the case for most of my life but at a level that is disruptive for about 10 years. I’m 50.
I need some encouragement and or feedback. I recently went to an intake and was accepted into a Partial Hospitalization/ intensive out patient program. I’ve been in therapy for a while and not making a lot of progress, so I wanted to try something more intensive and learn coping strategies.
But now that I am signed up, I’m freaking out about telling work I am going to be out again. I keep talking myself into “you are doing better” or “you are over blowing this, stay at work”. When inside I know that I’m not “better” and have no reason to think the next stressful situation will put me back in a dark place.

I don’t really know what I’m asking for here. Maybe some encouragement to move forward with my plan for treatment.

 

[Cuchculan]

Welcome to the forum. I always ask ' what will improve my quality of living '. If treatment is the answer, then you go for treatment. Nothing else seems to have helped so far. I know. What about work? I think work places have to be more acceptable around mental health issues these days. Years ago they were not. In some countries workers can even take mental health days. Meaning time out for mental health issues. Their job will be safe. Dare I say it is much like a woman taking time out after she has a baby. It is just accepted a lot more these days. I would say to do what you think is best for you. We can all anxious thinking ahead of time. That is the most common thing with anxiety. It will sort itself out. Anticipatory anxiety. We have all had it. Remember ' your health is your wealth '.

 

[Kelculator]

Hi, and welcome to the forum. Most of what I would have said has been covered above, heck, if not more than what I could say. I hope you feel a sense of belonging here, and are able to walk your path to a better outlook to life. I think the treatment plan is quite likely to be beneficial. Your mental health comes first. We are talking about literally your mind, your gear to control how you think and do everything in life.
Again, welcome and hope you're having a fine day.