Feeling a little better today but think I may have depression as well?

[shay1988]

Idk if it's just my anxiety making me feel this way but I can't help but think I may have depression also. I feel a constant doom feeling? And kinda just weird In the head. I don't wanna even get up and do anything! I hate this. I want to get up and take my kids to park or out to eat but I just feel like crap. Sickly feeling but I'm not sick. It's so crazy how I feel but I can't really explain it!? I did make myself go to store earlier but started feeling anxious so I came home. I'm starting to read books now I'm now reading the ministry of healing. To try and take my mind off of everything. But I can't help but still think about how I feel.

 

[Dalalak45]

sounds like your having a hard time there. I find this kind of thing hard when having this feeling because I always have a feeling of guilt towards my children when I can't be fun/ happy or cheerful for them. This is relatable and maybe call this day a write off but try not to over think it as it sounds to me like you might just be drained from not just mental issues but the stress of parental duties aswell which can also be very repetitive and soul draining without me trying to make children sound like the issue though. My boys love going on the train into town but I had an episode in the museum once with them. tingling face/ disorientation/ sweaty hands/ shallow breathing all kicked in and I told them we had to leave which they were confused by because it was quite abrupt to them . anyways the closer I was on the train back home the less panick I felt and the more I was irritated by the fact that there was infact nothing wrong with me. ( I think I drank too much coffee in the morning which set it off )

Took me a while to build up the courage to go back on the trains into town with them again. but I guess I just kept kicking myself to do something and weirdly even on the days I feel deflated and I push myself out the door I normally feel mentally better when we get back. I normally just take them to a place and let them choose where to walk and just see where we end up! my oldest son wants to look into geocaching now which looks quite good thing to keep your mind diatracted whilst out. Although I'm still figuring out How to do it ! Not sure if your children are old enough to take any Interest in that though... mines 10 the other is 4.

 

[Jonathan123]

sounds like your having a hard time there. I find this kind of thing hard when having this feeling because I always have a feeling of guilt towards my children when I can't be fun/ happy or cheerful for them. This is relatable and maybe call this day a write off but try not to over think it as it sounds to me like you might just be drained from not just mental issues but the stress of parental duties aswell which can also be very repetitive and soul draining without me trying to make children sound like the issue though. My boys love going on the train into town but I had an episode in the museum once with them. tingling face/ disorientation/ sweaty hands/ shallow breathing all kicked in and I told them we had to leave which they were confused by because it was quite abrupt to them . anyways the closer I was on the train back home the less panick I felt and the more I was irritated by the fact that there was infact nothing wrong with me. ( I think I drank too much coffee in the morning which set it off )

Took me a while to build up the courage to go back on the trains into town with them again. but I guess I just kept kicking myself to do something and weirdly even on the days I feel deflated and I push myself out the door I normally feel mentally better when we get back. I normally just take them to a place and let them choose where to walk and just see where we end up! my oldest son wants to look into geocaching now which looks quite good thing to keep your mind diatracted whilst out. Although I'm still figuring out How to do it ! Not sure if your children are old enough to take any Interest in that though... mines 10 the other is 4.

Now all this is a good example of GAD. (General anxiety disorder). Everything you say has been said many times by others in a similar situation. If I may say so you make the big mistake of retreating before 'IT'.
It is not easy to stand our ground in the face of the symptoms you mention. You had a a panic attack which can be overwhelming but is, in fact, no more than a reaction to fear. Of course you feel better when you get to a 'safe' place. But what is the difference between you in the museum and you in your safety zone? Fear! Once you no longer feel fearful the anxiety hormone, adrenaline, ceases to flow. If only we could understand that the feeling of panic is a perfectly normal reaction to fear greatly exaggerated. Everything in anxiety is normal emotions, but we play them up into big events and thus add fear to fear, a sure way to allow anxiety to continue. Of course, when you do make the effort and succeed then you feel better, there is a sense of achievement. Build on that with total acceptance. Stop the 'OMG's' and the 'what ifs'. Get Dr. Weekes' books, available on Amazon, and listen to her recordings on YouTube.

 

[shay1988]

Yes that sounds allot like what I deal with as well. U always start to feel better the closer you get to your safe zone! I have done this many times. I know I should stand my ground and not run from it and just accept what's going on but yes it is hard sometimes. My oldest daughter is 15 almost 16 and my middle daughter is 13. I also have twins that are 9. Boy and girl. I just feel so guilty cause I never wanna go anywhere or do anything because I'm scared of what will happen. And I feel so bad for them. I've tried to explain to them what's going on. My 15 year old is starting to get panic attacks at school and I'm trying to nip that in the butt before it gets to out of hand I need to help her and I feel so bad, could my anxiety be causing hers!? I really hope not. Mine started around her age and I pray she doesn't end up as bad as me. So I'm trying to talk to her and let her Kno those feelings are normal and to practice acceptance when u feel it coming on. Even tho I can't even do that at times. But I want her to be able to beat it and not suffer her whole life with it.

 

[MATD]

You are your children’s example. They learn from the parents. So, yes, your child is reacting because of the example you set. Not saying this to be hurtful or judgmental, just truthful and realistic. The anxiety behavior is passed from generation to generation simply by the behavior of the parents. Anxiety can be overcome, listen closely to what Jonathan said in his post. I’ve been practicing acceptance and it has done more for me than anything else I have tried.

 

[Dalalak45]

agreed there MATD, I've noticed if you show a slight amount of hesitation in anything, a child or my children will reflect that feeling onto themselves. It's a bit like when child falls and looks up to see your reaction before thinking for themselves If their okay or not..

Don't allow yourself to think that you have caused it though Shay. I know a couple of parents with children at similar ages that have struggled with anxiety. Schools and social life can be hard for children at that age because its such a judgmental age and environment. children havn't matured and compassion for one another isn't quite established at that point in life yet. All you can do is show confidence when telling them the best ways to handle situations and encourage them along the way to handle things independently on their own by giving them the right tools to use. we have a ELSA( emotion literacy support assistant) at our schools in uk which can be useful to help teach children with emotional struggles great ways to strengthen themselves. not sure if you have anyone similar at the school. My sister had some struggles at that age and so did my niece but as they got passed schools it all faded away!