Fear of going blind plus other problems

[Maniac]

Hi.

This my first time here. I'm 25 year old guy with severe problems. My childhood was awful. Toxic mother supported by an even worse grandmother. Father left me before my birth. I was also bullied in the primary school. Never had a job. Never had a true friend. In one word - hell! And I need help now from you guys. English is not my native language so be patient with me. Thanks in advance.

First question.

How to stop this fear, this thought that I will go blind? I went to the ophthalmologist five days ago and he said that my eyes are ok but I don't trust him. Something is saying to me that he is wrong, very wrong and that I will lose my sight very soon. This tortures me almost every single day. And this is not all. But let us start with this problem.

Any advice? I am open for everything.

 

[Cuchculan]

Welcome to the forum. I would ask what reason your ophthalmologist would have to lie to you? What would they stand to gain from lying? The thing is you think you are going blind. So no matter what anybody else tells you, you will want to believe what your mind is telling you. That is the cycle you have to try and break. To trust the experts. They are experts for a reason. They know more than we do. So that is something you can maybe try and work on. Trusting these people. Asking yourself why they would lie to you?

 

[Maniac]

Welcome to the forum. I would ask what reason your ophthalmologist would have to lie to you? What would they stand to gain from lying? The thing is you think you are going blind. So no matter what anybody else tells you, you will want to believe what your mind is telling you. That is the cycle you have to try and break. To trust the experts. They are experts for a reason. They know more than we do. So that is something you can maybe try and work on. Trusting these people. Asking yourself why they would lie to you?

I know that they are not lying to me but when I get home I get this strange thought that someone put a secret cup of acid somewhere in the house in order to blind me. And after that I have to wash my eyes several times. That takes about 20-40 minutes to do. My eyes are red from all of that washing and they hurt.

 

[Cuchculan]

And the question to ask yourself here is who put a secret cup of acid somewhere in the house? Why anybody would want to do that? Where would they get the acid from. Why you, instead of someone else? Just asking yourself some logical questions. To try and prove that some things are just not possible.

 

[Maniac]

Is it possible for an acid to transform in powder form? That is my fear.

 

[MainerMikeBrown]

Maniac, how many times have you seen this opthalmologist? Do you think he's a competent doctor?

 

[Maniac]

Maniac, how many times have you seen this opthalmologist? Do you think he's a competent doctor?

Yes she is. She is a great doctor.

One more thing. Last night I really hit myself in the eye.

But I am ok now.

 

[smilingsoul]

Is it possible for an acid to transform in powder form? That is my fear.

Transform how? Most acids are solutions of a chemical in water. For example, hydrogen chloride is a corrosive gas. When its dissolved in water it becomes hydrochloric acid, at a strength proportional to the amount of the gas that was dissolved. I can't think of a strong acid that exists as a solid (or a powdered solid) though. Ascorbic acid is one solid acid I can think of, but its better known as Vitamin C, and isn't considered a strong acid. If it got in your eye it would sting and redden it, but it wouldn't blind you in any reasonable scenario.