Fathers day.. every year.

[Grace360]

This feeling comes along every fathers day, or a day before. Almost like clockwork ever since I became "aware".
It's a feeling of abandonment. Of resentment. Anger. Sadness. Dissapointment. My depression kicks in like a sack of bricks on a bus full of highschoolers.
I'm a member of what you would call.. well. The #deadbeatdads club. My dad left.. well. Before I could speak to him and explain myself. He only saw a picture and touched my ears. He determined that I was too dark to ever possibly be his daughter. And so that was that. My mom raised me on her own and I'm left dad-less.
People have tried to relate. Like "well my dad wasn't in my life for a while, i get it". But atleast he came back. Mine never has. Who knows if he will.
I don't know. I just had to get that off of my chest. I feel real lonesome these type of holidays when I see everyone else. It's everywhere. Praising the dads of the world and equivalents.
Anywho, happy fathers day guys. From a member of your local deadbeat dads club
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[Kelculator]

I'm sorry to know. That's such a typical thing to say, but I'm sorry to know. I can't possibly just say something to make it all better, I know, it just takes time to heal some wounds. You have the right to be sad or even angry about your dad's absence. One thing that might help you feel better might be to redefine what father's day means, or better, what a parental figure means. Are there people in your life that act like a parental figure to you? Are there men that acted like a father to you? Father's day isn't just for appreciation to biological fathers, but all types of guardians. So many people don't have dads. What I have seen is that some people decide to make their own meaning out of the holiday, or you don't have to do that. As I said, you have the right to feel bad, it's normal, because father's day reminds you of your father that was never in your life.
Stay strong girl.