It's getting hard, I posted a thread last month about my anxiety and depression. I followed the suggestions in the comment section, it's not working at all for me. I feel like I'm about to lose my emotions, I stopped programming, a hobby that I loved so much.. I tried so hard to program something the other day, but my body and mind is killing me I'm losing interest. My school is about to start this september (Computer engineering tech) I got 4.0 gpa last semester, I was so happy after that day I was sad again. I keep having suicidal thoughts it's getting scarier. I'm on a long distance relationship and i've been telling my girlfriend about my depression. She started motivating me everyday, but it's not working at all.. to be honest it get worst because I started to feel bad, she's doing so much for me and she keeps crying because of me and she keep saying "i wish im there to help you" I hate myself, I'm such a trash boyfriend. Everything is so stressful for me now... I work 30-40 hours a week in fastfood (really stressful) to pay my bills and tuitions... customers are just so rude some of them are nice.. This is where I realized most people in this world only care about themselves. I'm just alone fighting depression and anxiety. I don't know if its too late for me because I get nervous all the time now if I see an opportunity. It's very hard, please always be nice to others. HELP ME